Horrible no good very bad day.

[kellkell2184]

So I just found out that my family doctor has dropped me as a patient due to me being honest with her and admitting I was an addict. She had her nurse call me and tell me that she refuses to see me and would never provide anymore help including scripts ever again. All this stems off of me calling her to see what other options I have for chronic back pain besides narcotics. I know there are other things they can do. However they want nothing to do with me. Its my own fault I am the addict but being treated like that has really impacted me and it hurts! So today is a bad day and is making my sobriety that much harder. So much for being honest you just get kicked aside...

[Sonrissa]

Hey Kell, so sorry to hear of the relapse! Be so careful, I worry that is a huge amount of pills! Have you found another doctor yet? Not to get more pills but to help with the detox process! I still hope/think that there are understanding Doctors out there who will help! I wish you the best and pray for your strength! Take care honey! Dont give up, you can make it!!

[kellkell2184]

I agree it will help me out too. I have been detoxing on and off now for almost a year. I would start and it would become to painful for me and I would seek out a script and somehow managed to get my doctor to fill two scripts one for tramadol 50mg take twice a day. So I would get 60 of those, and loritab 5s twice a day 60 of those too. Now at least I can no longer seek them out from a doctor. Now I have to get rid of my access out in public. I faltered and used last night I took around 18, 50mg pills of tramadol in a 24 hour period. I was scared I would go to sleep and not wake up. I really need to make the decision to get clean and get the help and buckle down and do it. Stupid addict mind is making it so hard!!!

[Free2agoodhome]

When I think i had a bad day i say " thats ok "....I used to have bad years,,,,  ;-)


Free~

[Bad_Obsession]

I agree...it is a person's responsibility to take the medication as directed.  We are all in charge of our own destiny.  However....the doctors nowadays are handing this stuff out like candy.  And they know how addictive it is...but most doctors fail to express to the patient how addictive it is.  A good doctor will not drop you like that.  Just the fact that this doctor dropped you the way he/she did shows what kinda doctor they are.  I agree with others....find another doctor.  There are good, compassionate ones out there.  Above all...stay strong.  Don't let setbacks drive you back into active addiction.

[Tom86]

Wow. sorry to hear that.  Sounds like a very uneducated physician.  You are better off finding someone that understands.   Good Luck

[kellkell2184]

My husband had a good point I think she released me to avoid a possible law suit or something.Where I am from someone sued there doctor for them giving them so many scripts and refills it drove them to abuse it. They won their case. I was shocked that someone could put all the blame on a doctor. Honestly me being an addict is nobody else fault but mine! However I wish the doctors where I live weren't so quick to just hand out scripts.

[marycarmel]

This makes me incredibly sad.  As a society, we have a long road as far as treating addiction goes.  The doctors are in a tough spot but I personally feel they should stick by their patient.

[Fireby29]

I hear ya Kell.  I feel the same way, but if it keeps me off the pills somehow, I am coming to terms with it.

We have some privacy rights, but ultimately a new doc is gonna see our records, so I plan on telling he or she first.  It's early on and it hurts, just absorb it for awhile.  You can make plans later.

Bryan

[kellkell2184]

What worries me is what my old doctor put in my records. I don't want every doctor out there thinking all I am doing is drug seeking when that is not the case at all. It ***** but it is what it is...

[Fireby29]

Your not alone.  I was dropped in late February, and I still have not gone and gotten a new primary care.  I want to be able to tell them I have been off the pills for quite awhile, so they trust me.  I would say that I am upset about having the scarlet letter on me, but honestly I am in a much better place about I now.  It is a shame they did not help you considering you were being honest with them, but now you can start fresh with a new doc.  Try and look at it that way, but I know it makes you feel like you have been literally kicked in the gut.  You will get through this, and your doing the right thing, know that!

Bryan

[Sonrissa]

Hi kell! I agree with Dixie, this really *****! doctors are so very afraid of losing their license these days! And unfortunately, I've been told that they do in fact have the right to do this! I'm so sorry, it must feel like a kick in the teeth! But yes, don't give up and find yourself another doctor! Most, will be supportive and try to help! Best wishes!

[Dixiechick72]

Awe... I'm really sorry about that.... To me that was the wrong way to handle it... I know some dr fear their license by others abusing and are quick to close the door... But a good dr will sit down and listen and do what they can to help u.... I would look for another doctor. Maybe one that does pain management and explain u no longer want narcotics but want to explore ur other options... Ok. Don't let it get u down too much. Don't take it personal. The doctor is probably just protecting their license ok. Big hugs