Ahh I see now.
Your GP prescribed you an AD and you went manic - can you remember the name of it? (im betting Zoloft or Prozac but I am prepared to be surprised) and the seroquel made you feel sedated - Sedation is the number on side effect of Seroquel and any comptent GP could have read his MIMS NZ book or online and seen it - its not hidden.
It doesnt sound to me like you are sensitive to drugs it sounds to me like your GP cant read before prescribing and knows nothing about Bipolar beyond what he/she has read.
Lithium needs monitoring and to be honest if this was my GP I would not take anything else they prescribed in this area either.
Can you see another GP? Do you have access to a pdoc any faster? Private pdoc or health service?
I think right now the best thing you can do is hang on in there. Seroquel isnt the best drug for you but you need an MS asap. In the meantime a therapist is a good thing - talking about this stuff helps.
My husband is being very good and trying to support me but he is also chasing his tail, he has not yet read anything about BP and I think he is in denial too. I had been feeling better but today I have started to feel the way I did when I was apparently transitioning. I dont understand all this stuff yet and I feel really scared. I run a shop and its xmas so its busy and I am the only one here, my husband popped in to see me and try to help me out but he has gone out with my son. I keep feeling panicked and then ok then emotional like I want to cry and then confused and so on, I dont want it to escalate like it did before. I dont know if this is just because I am feeling panicked about the fact that I am BP or if my moods are swing because of BP, I dont understand it yet. Do you think I should go back on the seroquel until I get to see the pdoc? it just knocked me out before, this is why they said I have to be seen by the pdoc and they cant do it through my GP, because of the reaction to the AD and then the Seroquel rection they want to start me on lithiam but I have to be monitored and it has to be done slowly.
Am I just having panick because of the situation or is this Bp I just dont know
Ok first thing is that what you are going through right now is perfectly normal.
I think there are 3 things you need right now from my experience.
1. Support - you need someone to help you here. You said you husband was gone - is he coming back? Do you have any friends who you can turn too? Family? You need to have some support and assitance to get you through this but you also need to be honest with them about how you feel which is my next point..
2. Honesty - be honest with yourself about how you feel, with your doctors about symptoms and with others supporting you. You do not need to hide anything anymore.
3. Treatment - you need to get some help with your current symptoms before anything. The pogoing moods are not unsual and you need treatment. Seroquel ***** as a first line MS - in reality Lamactil or Lithium are the best for a first line repsonse med - Lithium is still the most effective on both phases and this is what I would reccomend as it works well for most people but you will need to discuss this with your doctor, and you need to do this now. If they cannot get you into a pdoc then my best advice is go to hospital - I think right now you need urgent help to get stable.
There is hope OK. there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You are not being a pain to anyone here and you need to stop thinking like that, we know its hard but trust me on it, blaming yourself wont help.
Some other advice is do something you enjoy, take a walk, get some fresh air - this can help a lot you know..
And on snappy and mean - thats a BP symptom and my wife could write a book on it - if you need to find out how to tell people around you there are excellent books and web resources - Beyond Blue are an Australian Group who educate on Depression and Mental health and they have some excellent fact sheets and information on bipolar at this page - http://www.beyondblue.org.au/index.aspx?link_id=91
You have just started a course of education in life which none of us expected but its vital to learn and read and study the illness and medications.
You will also find that a therapist or psychologist is invaluable - having someone to talk to who is not part of your day to day life is really important in keeping you going.
And of course we are here, we can offer you advice and help as much as we can, you can post in the forum, PM us or leave us a note. We have been there, some of us are there now.
Thanks heaps
I am getting really panicked at work, I seem to go through periods where I feel I cant cope. My husband was here and he was trying to help out and I was really snappy and mean. I feel really bad now hes gone, I know im unstable at the moment but I dont know how to stop it, im not sure when my pdoc appointment is going to be. Is it normal in BP world to have your moods to come and go in waves like this. They have said they are going to try and get me seen b4 xmas so it should be soon. I dont want to be a pain to anyone, I have seroqel but I only lasted on it two weeks and I know it stopped me transitioning to full blown mania but it knocked me out and I cant afford to be like that so I dont know what to do.
Hell1971
As usual, Monkeyc is exactly on the money.... he is awesome!
Welcome to the group! It's not fun having bipolar and we know that all to well, but hopefully, you will find comfort in expressing yourself to those of us that truly know what you are feeling and experiencing.
For myself, personally, I have been helped through some rought episodes through the friends on this forum. It's scary to be diagnosed and also relieving to know that it wasn't all you causing the mess surrounding your life.
Congratulations on the first step to getting stable!
Racheal
I wish I could say that cleaning caused hypomania. I'd have an excuse to never clean again! But no, sometimes I am fine. Other times, I do start getting hypo and obsessive. Since I'm feeling especially fragile at the moment, I'm trying not to do anything that I know could set me off. I'm hoping that the lithium kicks in soon and I can avoid some of the mood swings.
I'm sorry your inlaws are being so insensitive. People sometimes look at me as the condition instead of as a person and that makes them behave in ways that dehumanize us. It's like we're objects and they forget that we should be treated at least as well as anyone else. Maybe you could tell them it hurts your feelings? Or maybe not. I know I can't say a word to my mil without risking a volcanic eruption. Vent away right here if you need to!!! I know what it's like to be stuck for weeks at a time; my mil stays between 4 and 6 weeks when she visits us, too. We're in your corner; don't forget!