Can't Get Off Couch

[Ann140]

I have been on depression and anixity meds for many years, doctor has changed doses, different meds. There are weeks I can't get off the couch, just lay and watch TV only getting up to eat or feed dogs. Do some laundry, run somewhere if I have too but right back on the couch. I will not change clothes, shower, for days. Then shower, change clothes and it starts all over. I'll sleep in my clothes so just in case "Something" happens, I'll be dressed....Always waiting for something to happen.  If I leave the house and see a cop or hear a firetruck going down or towards my road, I'll turn the car around and drive back by my house to be sure they aren't going to my house. I'm so paranoid it makes everyone around me crazy. I lock the door when I leave and have to come back and check. I'll be half way down the road and can't remember if I was THINKING about locking it or if I DID. I'll turn around and go check. I started writing it down but then can't remember if when I wrote the note before or after I locked it. It will drive you MAD !!! And I will cry for no reason, it's like I have compartment and when it gets full, the tears will just flow, I can't stop or control and sometimes have no idea WHY I'm crying. Are there others that act this way or is it just me ???????  

[Ann140]

I'm glad to hear I'm not alone (not that u have it too). This has been going on and off for about 8 years. I'll be fine for so long then it just hits. Feel like a Yo-Yo...Had depression severe for about 15 years but it started long before that, a lot of tramas from about 14 on,very bad home life, deaths, seeing boys get off choppers coming back from vietnam half there (body parts missing or mentally), and so on. I still shake when I hear an army chopper fly over, will never forget that sound and that was a long time ago. But life goes on, just wish I could function more than I do. Missed a lot out of life due to fear and depression. My family calls them my "Crazy Pills", if I stop taking them, I don't notice a change till someone else points it out that I'm  either Dr. Jeykell or Mr. Hyde. You don't know if I'll kiss you or hit you. One minute I'll be fine, the next screaming my head off or crying and don't think I can go on another day. Wears me out....So I go take the pills again. Ugh !!! I have people say, just be happy your doing this to yourself. They DO NOT understand I have NO control.I Know some of the things I do are stupid and do not make sense, I know that !!! But can't stop them. So you do the best you can to live with it and function the best you can. Hope you have a lot of good times even tho we have a lot of down days.......

[karonna]

It is definitely not just you! I have what I call crying fits, where I just start bawling and have no idea why I am. I also have trouble getting up and doing anything, dishes, cleaning, unless I absolutely have to. I have always thought that maybe I'm just not on the right 'mix' of meds and that's why I have crying fits and no drive. Try not to get discouraged. I am finding that this community is a great shoulder to cry on when it's needed by someone who is not judgmental, or someone who is having similar problems. I wish you the best of luck! You can get through this!