Hi, I am 31 years old. I have been having a lot of issues these past 6-9 months. I will be completely happy, then go into a rage, to where I am so mad its like I black out. Then go into a suicidal thoughts feeling so down on myself. This is not normal for me. I have been fighting these feelings for almost a year now. It is now affecting my relationship with my fiancé. last night I lost complete control over myself and actually hit my fiancé. This is so not me. I feel completely lost.
When it is my monthly time, things are 100000 times worse, if that is even possible.
I feel like I have lost myself, and am losing relationship.
P.S. I do have 2 boys (11 & 4) I do not ever take my anger out on them, but they do see me crying all the time. I do not like my kids to see me this way.