No. You're not. You enemy is the way you think. If you can change that, life will go better. Therapy will help. Exercise can help. Meditation can help. Support from friends and family can help. Finding the things you like can help. Almost none of us were planned, really. We all start out being taken care of by our family. That's all just life. When you go out on your own, life goes to a different place. I don't know what your job is, but it sounds like you call people. They probably don't necessarily want to be called, so there will be insults. It goes with the territory. It's not personal. None of us like to be interrupted when we don't want to be. It's not you, it's the situation, so you can't judge yourself by that. If you don't like the job, find something else, do whatever it takes to do that. If you like your job, accept the downs with the ups. No job is all good. Put your focus on overcoming the things in the past that haunt you and the thinking you're doing that puts unnecessary extra pressure on you. It won't be easy, but it can be done. Peace.