I need an answer plz

[littlepixie13]

My name is well maybe i wont sure that lets call me izzy and i'm 18, I have been feelin a perticulure way for a couple of years now, ... i cant stop thinking about how to die and the strange thing is i really want to, it seems so nice to me and i told some one i know i.e. a close friend and they kept saying tht i'm crazy and thats when i starting getting scared. Is this not normal for me to feel lik this, i dnt lik to go out in fact i dnt lik to tlk to anyone unless its threw the internet even then i dnt lik tlkin .. i want to bbe alone and to leave this place. I'm only asking if this is not normal not for medicine i lik my thoughts and wht i think about it helps me to become happy and if sumthing makes you happy u shouldn't inore it .. right. There is a few details i left out but i'm startin to think twice about askin you so best be quick before i start tlkin about not sending this...

[birdie0907]

If you have been thinking about dying, you are in danger, and need to see a psychiatrist or counselor to ensure you are safe from doing something dangerous. If you can't afford them, at least see your doctor. Since you have been thinking this way for 3 years, you have more reason to seek help right now. You didn't fill in all your profile, but if you live in a city, they will have a distress line that you can call for temporary help.

You are young and have much life ahead. Get help and with luck you may have many years of happiness and will mainly forget this moment existed. If you suicide, your family will think about that sad moment every day of their lives.

[dhylles]

i agree with Steph. you definitely need to speak to someone about what you are feeling and don't be ashamed of telling them everything you because that is the only way they can help you figure out why you feel this way. with depression the thought of death and dying are common because alot of people go through it and i have as well. but like Steph said it is a permanent so just make sure you seek professional help. please don't give up on yourself. glad you are able to talk about it. that is a very brave thing to do. we are all being brave talking about our problems. that is a very big step you took and it shows you are looking to get the proper help you need.

[stephi5348]

I understand how you feel. You seem to be comfortable with your feelings. Do you think you might be depressed? Did anything happen 2 years ago to possibly make you think this way?  

I have been depressed for as long as I can remember and I have been on meds for about 5 years. It does help but I still haven't found the magic solution.

I think you could get some benefit from seeing someone and hearing what they have to say.

I have tried twice myself (overdose) and its very painful. I am ashamed still from it. I wouldn't recommend hurting yourself. I realized that its a permanent solution to a temporary issue.

I don't know if this helps you but feel free to ask me or talk to me if you want. I will listen and not judge you in any way.

Be safe!

Steph