Should I get medical help?

[sunnylady200]

I've had a very unstable relationship with my mother all my life, and I've just discovered that although she's 90 now, she's recently stolen the cine film of my wedding to my first husband who died tragically young, leaving me with a small child.  She's given this film to a distant relative, who just wanted it to complete his massive collection I think, but now he's died and I doubt very much I'll ever see the film again.  Our child has no other film of my late husband.
This is just the latest in a string of peevish actions on her part.
Lately I've been going back over my childhood and youth and realising that she's been a toxic influence on me.
I have anger issues, and can't take criticism from anyone.  I take comments very much to heart.
I have great difficulty sleeping through, due, I believe, to my mother forcing me to go to bed  and "making" me go to sleep much too early.
I've lost several jobs through my bad sleep patterns and inability to take criticism.  I walked out of my last job when my boss shouted at me.
I really feel I've been damaged by my mother, and it's still going on.
Should I go to my doctor and ask for help? If so, what help could I expect?
Thanks.

[Alisonj29]

Yes I would go and talk to your doctor. They may do some blood work to rule out certain things like a thyroid issue etc. Then he may suggest counseling or medication.
I am so sorry for your loss as well as your childs. Your mother does sound quite toxic.
Good Luck, I hope you get some answers

[mammo]

Hi.  I feel your that your mother's treatment of you has created the anger you feel inside, and inability to handle criticism.  You should seek help.  Normally it's things from our childhood that come back to haunt us in our adult life as depression and/or anxiety.  Go to a psychiatrist, I suggest this because should you need medication they are the most knowlegable, and he/she can refer you to the proper therapist.  Therapy can be a lengthy process, and medication can help a lot as we work thru all our issues.  It's sad when the one person you should be able to trust the most, lets you down. Depression creates problems with sleep, and this may be contributing to your inabilty to sleep.  Depression also robs us of our happiness, we have anger issues, mood swings, feelings of sadness, lack of desire to do things or see friends.  You did nothing wrong and are paying for your mother's actions, which is not fair!  You need to let the past go, and move on....easier said than done.  Make an appt. with a psychiatrist, he'll ask what is wrong and just be totally honest about how you're feeling and what you think the problem is.  He'll take it from there.  I don't understand how your mother could rob her grandson of the only memories of his father........sad and pathetic!  But it's time to think of you and getting yourself in a better place emotionally.  You need to forgive your mother.  This doesn't mean that you condone what she has done, it merely means you are laying down your anger, walking away leaving her for God to handle.  Letting go of this anger will free you. You're carrying a heavy load, and so long as you do....she is still calling the shots. Stop being her victim, you deserve so much better!  I wish you all the best, and take care.