freight train

[mindless1]

I am a freight train heading for a blocked tunnel.
I am a bullet heading for the impact.
The nothingness is obscured by doubt.
The weight of self-recrimination crushing.
Cowardice foremost the option
Destiny imprinted in red..

I am too scared to come and see you.
I want to curl up into a ball, and forget, disappear, cease to exist - could you offer me this?

My mind is racing and raging, up - down - round & round….
One more nick & I will feel better, only I don’t. I don’t..? I don’t??
There is no hope for me.. even you know that…no hope

[RainLover71]

You don't have to leave just stay on here & make some friends.

[Sunduri]

I like your posts, they give voice to how I feel.  Know you are not alone.  There are many who live in the darkness and suffer alone.

[nursegirl6572]

I never asked you to leave dear.  You misunderstood my post.  You're more than welcome to post anything you want.  My point was, you tend to post a lot of your writings, which are a great way to express yourself, they are just more appropriate as journal entries.  That's all.

We're glad you're here.  There's a whole lot of great things about this site.  Stick around and check things out!

[mindless1]

i'll leave. i seem only to cause upset where ever i go. sorry for having been a problem. wont happen again.

[nursegirl6572]

I would like to make a suggestion.  It seems like most of your posts are of your writings related to depression, which is a great form of expression!  

However, I think they would be better suited as a journal entry, hon.  The forum is more for people asking questions, seeking answers.  If you keep your journal settings to "public" so that everyone can see them, people will see when you've posted a new poem, etc, and will be able to comment on them as well.  

I really think that's more appropriate, especially because on some days, I've seen you post several different threads with your writings.  That can cause a person who is seeking advice, to have their threrad bumped down the page and not seen.

I think you have a very creative way of writing and expressing yourself.  You could also try writing something a bit more positive too.  That would be a nice challenge for you, and it will help encourage positive thinking, rather than encouraging the darker thinking.

Keep up the great work, and thanks for understanding!

[RainLover71]

Remember what ALI use to say--''I am the greatest'' well you need to believe that.

[RainLover71]

Yes,there is always hope--get all the negative people out of your life & focus on you--confront people you don't want to have anything to do with & remember you are always number one.