i need help, don't know what to do

[skram]

my day just seems to be getting worse, i have just taken a pair of scissors to my arm again, i know i shouldn't but it feels like its the only way to relieve the pressure in my head!! my kids had biscuits for lunch as i had no energy to make them a sandwich!!! they escape from the house as early as they can to get away from me, i don't blame them, i don't want to live with me either. my youngest son came home after falling off his bike sobbing, with  a huge gash on his arm, and all i did was snap at him, he's only 7, i feel like such a bad mum, the only thing i do right is making sure my baby is cared for, but even that feels like i'm forcing myself to do it!!!!! my friend has just been round which i thought would make me feel better (it usually does!) but even when she was here i wasn't my usual self (didn't even bother to put on a proper front to hide how i was feeling) i just want to cry and scream, am writing on here as i don't know what else to do, i think i just need some support!!
Sarah

[skram]

thanks for your concern!! am still extremely low at the moment, luckily my husband hasn't noticed the marks on my arm, the last thing i want is him fussing over me!!!, thank you so much for the help lines you have posted, i don't feel able to talk to anyone at the moment but will probably be able to look at the web site
this has been coming for the last few days, and i tried to explain to my gp how i was feeling but didn't feel like she was listening, have now been referred to a psychiatrist
Sarah x

[DreaRomero]

Here are some uk numbers you can call and talk to someone.

[phone] samaritins in your area
020 7481 7600 Turning point  

http://www.turning-point.co.uk/ this is a service I have found online that is in warwickshire and they may be able to at least give you some advice.

[DreaRomero]

Hi Sarah

I am sorry you are feeling bad today. Sometimes it is really hard just to get through the days i know, but I promise you that these feelings will pass and that you will feel better again. THIS IS NOT A PERMENANT SITUATION!

If you are at the stage where you are self harming as a release then you need to ask for help. If you can, are you able to have someone you know and trust come round and sit with you until you feel calmer? I know we try to cover it up but it obviously is not working today and as a result you should ask for help. If you want to chat to me on here I am more than happy to do that with you.

Think about it this way, you feel bad now but you don't know how you are going to feel in a few hours time. You could be feeling much better by then. You have to congratulate yourself for getting through the day so far. You also have to congratulate yourself for coming on here and asking for help. You have done the right thing.

Please get back to me asap and let me know what I can do to help. I will do all I can to make you feel better and calmer.

Drea x