made it through christmas

[mandy876]

dont know how i did it but im still here.  i cried the 23,24, but the 25 my 5 year old grandson woke me and said get up santa has been here.  he was so happy and excited.  how could you not laugh and smile to see how great like could be.  very good day.  but the next day i was sad again and am going to see my doctor tell to help me are tell me someome who can,.  i wanr to be happy, my mom would have loved her great grandson.  she woud have helped us to spoil him.  g;proa789

[mammo]

Hi.  I can relate to how sad we can be during the holidays, especially when we've lost so many loved ones through the years.  It sounds like you are in a depression and there is so much help for you!  You can and will feel better!  Think of how much you mean to your grandson and how much he needs and loves you!  Sadness can overcome us for many reasons and with help we can see "why" we have to fight to not let depression win and let our loved ones be the wind beneath our wings to carry us through.  It sounds like you really miss your mother, but you know she wants you to be happy more than anything else!  Let her live on in you and shine through so everyone will know what a wonderful person she was.  Try to see the world through your grandson's eyes....so new and wonderous...they do keep us grounded.  You have so much to teach him and share with him, and you want him to have the best memories of you!!  My 4 year old grandson turned a sad day into a magical one as well and he is what keeps me going.  See your doctor and know you're not alone.  Big hugs and best wishes.

[4Maddie44]

Well done for making it through Christmas.  The joy on a childs face is so uplifting. I am glad your dear little grandson helped you through.  I do hope your doctor can help you and give you some advice.  I am sure, like me, you will eventually come out from the dark place you are in.  

Take care.  Let me know how you get on.

Maddie