self mutilation..

[Whtny]

my problem imo isnt as, severe, as others. but recently. my girlfriend dumped me and i started to drink. a lot. id drink to the point where it felt so good to just close my eyes and listen to nothing. but while i was drunk and numb, id cut myself, and it didnt just happen once it happened several times, and i just dont know how to deal with it, i dont want to kill myself, it just feels sooo good to do it when the time comes around. and i dont think im crazy, but i just dont know how to deal with it. . . if theres anything you guys can do to help me out its much appreciated.

-whtny

[kway347]

I once read that book CUT by Patricia McCormick. It was like it had to be my own little secret though, and I doubt it really helped- if anything made me realize what would happen if anyone found out that I would have to go to a place like that. I used to be a cutter and after 2 years, have started again. I don't have any advice, I'm just having the same problem you are.

[TraceyB80]

Personally I think your problem is severe. First of all, you are drinking to numb your pain and while you are drunk, you are cutting yourself. Its bad enough to self-harm when you are sober, but when you are drunk you could do so much more harm because you aren't as aware of what you are doing.
I urge you to see a counselor who can help you deal with your problems so you won't drink and cut yourself.

[wellb]

So sorry to hear about your sadness over your girlfriend and your cutting experience.

There is a book called "CUT" which I heard is very good, and many other books out there about cutters/cutting. Plz ck out AMAZON, and type in "self-mutilation" under their SEARCH engine. There are great books out there on the subject.

My cousin is a cutter,btw.

You are not alone, and yes, the "release" from cutting does feel good to cutters.The problem is that after the cut,(ie: the high), comes the after-effect , and the after-effect is what will eventually bring you down (the low). The low may make you depressed. Then the up-and-down cycle will begin,over and over again.

I am not a doctor, but my suggestion is to contact a Counselor for starts. Then the Counselor can recommend you to a Doctor that can prescribe the right medication for you (eg: an anti-depressant, etc). If you have a regular doctor, a General Physician, he or she can refer you to a special doctor too.

I guess I say this to you because you mentioned "suicide", and suicide is so serious.

I suffered through two (2) Major Depressions so I know how much pain you are feeling right now. But....you can survive this. I did.
Just please make an appointment with a professional because for me, my anti-depressant actually saved my life about 10 yrs ago. (If I had not seeked help then, I think I may not be here right now). Do it.

[dawsohs]

Hey i have self harmed too when things get really bad for me i take a lrg knife and cut into the top of my right thigh. I feel better during and after doing it and i feel like i'm punishing myself for being a fruit loop or making other people miserable. It does the trick for me. However......................I have not done this for one month now and i know thatthis behaviour is damaging. It is wrong, no matter what know that you are a good person, maybe just a little traumatised by a bad breakup and you will get better. Please know that we are all here to help and support you and seek help from your doctor too. Look after yourself mate ...................