the "I am annoyed by this" thread

[lost_kitty]

I know this doesn't really belong in here, but I feel like I have to get this off my chest.

I'm a bit annoyed by TTC, why you ask? Well, there is 1st the fact that MEN can produce a child at any time, any day, but we WOMEN can only conceive 2 days a month, 2 DAYS, that are 28 days in a year, the rest of the time is bleeding, hoping, crossing fingers and the worst thing EVER, waiting.

Something else that annoys me a bit are my friends or the people closest around me who conceive, and conceive, and conceive, and GET WHAT THEY WANT, while everyone else is trying, trying and losing their hope.

And PLEASE, what is with all the charting? BBT, TTC, CM, HPT, OPK - people, this is TOO MUCH, when did conceive a miracle of life become work? Oh, not to forget the DH, BF, Baby Daddy - or whatever you wanna call him, it's like they don't seem to understand sometimes how important it is to some, or ALL of us to receive such a gift.

One more - for those of you out there who have DH, BF and whoever, with already at least one other face to see themselves in, it's like my BF doesn't understand with his two sons that I kinda sometimes feel left out.

It's really good to get it out, anyone feels the same? I mean come on, let it out, grab a tissue. :)

[Michelleinhawaii]

Oh and I forgot to mention that through all of this I had a mental breakdown started having panic attacks and have to see a therapist and take zoloft, xanax, and sleeping pills to get me through my days.....and now since we starte dthe second kind of chemo, my husband lost his mind too and has to see the therapist with me and he takes lexapro, xanax, and sleeping pills to get through his days

Thanks for letting me vent to perfect strangers....nobody can understand...everyone just feels sorry for my husband and I and tells us that  "God has a plan for us"...It's been a great plan so far that's for sure!!!!

[Michelleinhawaii]

I can relate to everyone here, but I got you all beat!  I TTC for 2 years...found out my husband has low volume, he's "broken"...I had a laparoscopy found out I had endo and endo polyps "I'm broken ,too"...had 8 IUI's....finally got pregnant...bled/passed clots from day 1...took progesterone shots 3x a week, baby asprin, and progesterone suppositories daily...miscarried at 8 weeks....had D and C at 12 weeks....pathology from D and C diagnosed with having a "complete molar pregnancy"...bled for another month after D and C...had another D and C...diagnosed as having cancer since the "mole" grew back...monitored weekly with bloodtests...my HCG wasn't dropping, so had to start chemotherapy...did 7 weeks of methotrexate chemo numbers still never went down...now on my 2nd round of ACT-D chemo....9 months later instead of having a baby I will be having "cancer and chemotherpay"!!!!!!  

By getting pregnant I got cancer...WTF!!!
I spent thousands of dollars on fertility treatments to get pregnant with a very rare one in a million cancerous tumor called choriocarcinoma!!!!  Who the hell gets cancer from being pregnant?!?!?  It sounds like a joke and this is my life...

I'm tired of getting poked, protted, having surgeries, being diagnosed with the unthinkable, watching all of my friends getting pregnant at the drop of a hat and having beautiful babies without complications, seeing moms screaming at their babies and kids in the stores, and I especially hate seeing pregnant women everywhere and feeling "jealous".  I hate that I have to wait a year to TTC again and then start this whole process over again.

[wantingababy2007]

Well I can relate to all of you.  My DH and I have been trying for 2 years now.  It seems like everywhere I turn I see pregnant women.  Whats worse than that is all these teenagers getting pregnant that are not married and you know can't take care of the babies without the help of their parents....that one really blows my mind!  I am 34 years old and my husband is 37...I had a baby girl when I was 19 that I decided to give up for adoption so she could have a better life.  I've had 2 miscarriages in a previous miscarriage and now I can't even get pregnant PERIOD!  We have been to a fertility specialist and all....did 2 IUI's and nothing!  The best part for me is when I get really, really depressed and don't feel like getting out of bed for a week...my DH wants to sit and comfort me and say "don't worry it will happen one day for us"  I just want to scream at that point "WHAT IF IT DOESN'T? "  THAN WHAT?  Thanks for listening....that made me feel a lot better....at least for tonight

[piggy2]

Can you believe it?  My honey took me to the beach to "get away from it all" and we checked in to a swanky little place, got on our suits (I could hear the ocean waves and feel the breeze)  ahhhhhh!  this is just what I needed.  I unfold my beach towel on a lounger and ...... viola!  what do I see parked right next to our claimed spot for the day?  A big 'ol preggie, lookin great in a two piece.  (tears come to eyes but do NOT spill)  God is so cruel sometimes!!!!!  argh!  I tell my hubby, " uh, I'll be at the tiki bar!!!"     haha   true.  >:O(

[tctml]

wow.....Im reading all your postings and I feel like you guys are inside my head, and know exactly how Im feeling.  Im so glad I found this website.  There isn't one person in my life currently that understands at all what I am feeling.  I have been trying for nine years, and have absolutely nobody to talk to about my emotions.  All I get are looks of "pity". I get so anoyed everytime I hear the "its going to be okay" line from my BF.  Of course its going to be okay for him regardless of whether or not we have a child.  He already has two of his own.  My brothers wife is expecting their 8th child......yes I said 8! She is a smoker, who smokes duirng her pregnancies and around her kids and somehow she is pregnant with her 8th.  Im constantly poking myself with needles, watching what I eat, dont drink........Im sure you all know where this is going.  

Anyway, it felt good getting it off my chest with other women who understand.  Thanks for starting this thread and i wish you all the best of luck!!

[wendb]

I'm just glad I found this forum.  It makes me feel better to know that there are other ladies out there who feel the way I do.