I need your support!

[ArmyPrincess819]

I went for an u/s today. My dr req it due to the braxton hicks I have been having. I went and the baby looks great and my cervix looks great. I was pleased. We also found out that it's a boy. We were ecstatc. So the tech went to talk to the dr. We looked at the 3d pics of the baby we got and he looks just like my dh. He is so gorgeous and perfect. The Dr and the tech came in and the dr then did a vag u/s and noticed that the placenta is covering my cervix. In time it should move to early to diagnose me with placenta previa but if in about 2-4 wks it does not move then I will be officially diagnosed with placenta previa. Which is pretty common I had it with my older son. The Dr did mention that my hematoma is bigger than it was a few weeks ago. At this point I'm at a high risk for a m/c. I guess your body goes through an inflamation stage and your body reacts to the bleed and trys to dissolve it but in the meantime that can rupture my membranes or cause an infection that can go to my baby and potentially kill him. I'm scared and fighting just losing it. I have now seen my baby perfectly and feel a bond with him I can't bear to lose him not now. I asked please is there any meds I can take to make this bleed go away and she said no. It would do more harm. She told me for right now everything is fine. She told me to play the waiting game and in the meantime very little activity period. I can't stand up for long etc. So I'm not pretty much bed ridden until who knows when. I obviously will do whatever the Dr tells me to but I have all this time to think. I keep thinking about how I could just wake up and lose him. I can't bear another later term m/c. I don't have the strength. The Dr felt so bad but she asked me to think positive. I just can't. I always tell you guys think positive. I need your help! Help me to think positive. What can I do to just know that everything will work out. My poor dh is so supportive but he twists what the dr says so he doesn't have to be scared or feel pain. He can't help if something goes wrong it will kill him. Our last m/'c in sept did him in. He is now on meds and in therapy bi-weekly along with our marital counseling. I know tmi but I just want to be honest with you guys. You are all like my family and close friends. Sorry to ramble I have really fought back the tears tonight I'm afraid once I start I won't stop! Hugs to you all,
AP

[ArmyPrincess819]

Thank you Kgokgo I appreciate your kind words.

Dani- Jeremy Michael is my boy's name!

[Dani711]

By the way, on another note, a BOY....boy were you wrong LOL!  Did you pick out a name???  Try to stay positive and think how nice it is to know what you are having!

[kgokgo]

I`m sorry that you are going through this uncertainity and anxiety. God has a plan for us all and I`ll be praying that yours involve holding your beautiful baby in 26 weeks time. You and your husband will be in my prayers.

Take care

[ArmyPrincess819]

Kc1021- Thank you so much. It means alot to me. I wish I could remain as positive as you and the rest of the gang but I just can't do it. It's going to destroy my marriage again. I can't seem to get it together.

[kc1021]

Hi AP,

I've followed your pregnancy in both this forum and the 18-34 forum.  We are about the same amount of weeks in our pregnancy.  Whenever I read about what you are going through with the hospital visits and frequent bleeding I always have this feeling that everything will be fine with your pregnancy.  Don't ask me why I feel that way but I just know that this baby boy will be a healthy big baby and he'll be in your arms very shortly!  

You've had a lot of experience with your previous pregnancies and previous complications, so rely on that experience to get you through these next couple weeks.  As always, take care and rest and just imagine that sweet baby!  You can do it!!!

[susi1976]

just to let you know that i will be praying for you and your baby aswell. i dont post many times in this forum but it has helped me a lot after my two miscarriages. i think you are a wonderful woman and allways have words of comfort for everybody here. i really think in the power of being positive and one thing i know, you sound to me like a very strong woman. the best of luck and have lost of rest. your baby will be fine
take care
susi