I need your support!

[ArmyPrincess819]

I went for an u/s today. My dr req it due to the braxton hicks I have been having. I went and the baby looks great and my cervix looks great. I was pleased. We also found out that it's a boy. We were ecstatc. So the tech went to talk to the dr. We looked at the 3d pics of the baby we got and he looks just like my dh. He is so gorgeous and perfect. The Dr and the tech came in and the dr then did a vag u/s and noticed that the placenta is covering my cervix. In time it should move to early to diagnose me with placenta previa but if in about 2-4 wks it does not move then I will be officially diagnosed with placenta previa. Which is pretty common I had it with my older son. The Dr did mention that my hematoma is bigger than it was a few weeks ago. At this point I'm at a high risk for a m/c. I guess your body goes through an inflamation stage and your body reacts to the bleed and trys to dissolve it but in the meantime that can rupture my membranes or cause an infection that can go to my baby and potentially kill him. I'm scared and fighting just losing it. I have now seen my baby perfectly and feel a bond with him I can't bear to lose him not now. I asked please is there any meds I can take to make this bleed go away and she said no. It would do more harm. She told me for right now everything is fine. She told me to play the waiting game and in the meantime very little activity period. I can't stand up for long etc. So I'm not pretty much bed ridden until who knows when. I obviously will do whatever the Dr tells me to but I have all this time to think. I keep thinking about how I could just wake up and lose him. I can't bear another later term m/c. I don't have the strength. The Dr felt so bad but she asked me to think positive. I just can't. I always tell you guys think positive. I need your help! Help me to think positive. What can I do to just know that everything will work out. My poor dh is so supportive but he twists what the dr says so he doesn't have to be scared or feel pain. He can't help if something goes wrong it will kill him. Our last m/'c in sept did him in. He is now on meds and in therapy bi-weekly along with our marital counseling. I know tmi but I just want to be honest with you guys. You are all like my family and close friends. Sorry to ramble I have really fought back the tears tonight I'm afraid once I start I won't stop! Hugs to you all,
AP

[Tiger63]

Hey AP, I'm so sorry you are going through this but just think how strong your baby has been so far! Alll that bleeding and he is still holding on. He is strong and you are strong my friend. Two weeks is so long to wait but i have faith that you will look after yourself. Try to stay busy and keep your mind off things. When i started bleeding earlier this pregnancy, it was extremely hard to stay positive so when i was worring about m/c i just kept saying this over and over in my head: "i am having a healthy pregnancy. My baby is strong and perfect". I know it sounds cheesy but i kept saying it until i calmed myself down. Try it!

Look after yourself sweetie xoxox

[GMB08]

ap...if He brings you to it hell get you through it.....think positive.....take extra care of yourself.................................i hope it all works out! blessings!

[mapes10]

I think the best part of having friends is that they hold you up when you don't have the strength to stand.  We are all here for you, and just know that there are tons of prayers going up for you.  God is being flooded with requests.  When you can't take it anymore, come on here and post.  You know there is always someone around willing to listen and support you.  Try to relax as much as possible, and keep us updated.  When do you have to go back to the dr?

[ArmyPrincess819]

Thank you all so much. I think you are all the best. I love you guys. I'm really having a hard time it's affecting my sleep my moods etc. Your words are so uplifting. Thank you for taking the time to be so supportive. It means so much to me and my baby that you keep us in your prayers. Thank you.

Hugs,
AP

[mjml]

Ahh sweety everything will be fine i promise. Your baby will be strong and fight its way to live. I understand your bond with the baby i had that the second i saw my babies heart beat its a maternal thing. My dad tells me everything happens for a reason and one day however bad it seems or down u feel it will all be explained. Hope you feel better soon babe x

[steph9803]

I'm so sorry you are having to deal with this now. I'm with Bam...He is going to be just fine! I'm sending you lots of love and hugs. You and your family will be in my prayers.