if you feel you must go see a doctor they can prescribe a med for depression k you are not alone I had hiv scare when I dated a girl that was a needle-user bout 1997 so I get tested every 8 months which is the grace period to detect HIV
Sorry for what you’ve been through. I know the feeling- since a rape I feel diseased and no doc can explain besides high risk hpv. Knowing I now have the hpv is awful. I feel bumps but all doctors say it’s not warts. I don’t feel normal or myself either and the whole thing turned my life upside down. To point where it feels I don’t have a life. I have severe ptsd and anxiety- I too find it hard to leave the house. Thinking of you