PPD? :( (long post)

[Liz_zoey]

Hey there yall, I'm not pregnant anymore, but I've noticed the ppd forum doesn't get any people onit, and was wondering if anyone had any tips on dealing with post partum depression? My baby girl was born Jan 14, so she's almost 1 month old. I feel really down most of the time, and I get very agitated easily, like even the smallest things will set me off.

I'm 21, and live at home with my parents. They've been so helpful with everything, but its still hard, and I don't feel like I have a right to say that because I do have alot of help. When I know I'm going to be home alone with the baby I get so anxious about it. I feel like I'm not doing anything right, and that I'm letting everyone down. Then I have moments where I know I'm doing everything I can; I'm still in school, and worked up until the day before I delivered.

I had to have emergency surgery to remove my gallbladder when baby girl was just about 3 weeks old, and since then I've been out of it. I can't do anything, and I feel like I should be doing so much more. I was breastfeeding exclusively, and had to stop because of the surgery. I'm really down about that, because I really wanted to continue doing it,even if it kind of was a pain in my butt.

Then there's the story with my babys daddy. There's so much I really won't get into it, but its a huge stress for me. He wants all the glam of having a baby without the nitty gritty. So the bills all go to me, and he gripes about how much time I let him see her. Its more than any court would give him to say the least. I have a lawyer ready to go, but I don't know if I'm ready to go down that road yet. Because once I do, the fights will really start.

I'm so stressed out, exhausted from caring for a newborn, and still trying to heal from giving birth, then having major surgery. Also I've lost so much weight since giving birth that even my pre pregnancy clothes fall off of me. I hate the way I look now, and everything thats going on is starting to make me hate myself. I feel like I should do more, but I just can't. Physically or mentally, I just can't. I love my daughter so much, but when she's crying in the middle of the night I sometimes wish I would've been more careful. Then I hate myself even more for thinking that.

I just don't know how to not feel this way. Does this sound like ppd? :(

[blessed_mommaandwife]

**time like this stupid phone sorry. Anyways take some personal time if u can even if only for a bath and I'm here and u can message me if u wanna talk

[blessed_mommaandwife]

Yea i had it for awhile and I thought nothing would help but God came thru for me and brought me outta my pit. Don't let ppl rush you or try to push u take the good and brush off the bad.. ppl should only support in a crime like

[mommylex]

I wish I had good advice but I don't. All I can say is "focus on now" (feel the pain and move on) swiftly! So you're upset and angry or sad and empty. So soak this in & off we go. No more wasting time.

Focus on what you ARE doing right.

[newmommyDPF]

im suffering from ppd as well. its not as bad as urs soumd yet but its getting worse. I wanna start with the baby daddy issue I cant tell u wat too do but court sounds the best u can get child support so hd can help with bills and he'll learn to appreciate what u was allowing him.as for the rest . if. u have help be thankful take a lil personal time do ya hair or catch a movie see some friends . im trying to do that now .it doesnt make u s bad mom it makes u a good mom that u refuse to go crazy and I see it as long as ur baby is safe and has what she needs u can take a lil personal time

[Liz_zoey]

Thank you hun. At my 2 week check up my dr said she'd watch me, but only thought I had baby blues. And my family knows to an extent, but its hard to talk to them sometimes. Thank you for your response.

[rainfamily16]

I've never had PPD so I don't know the symptoms, have you spoken to your parents and/or a dr about how you feel? Your dr will be a huge help if you let him/her know what your going through!! Wish I could be more help sweetie good luck and try to just be positive :) I know easier said then done bit you have to try :) hugs!