suicide?!?!

[crazycurious11]

Okay I know I'm going to get a lot of negative comments on this but I need help and this just hit me yesterday so I haven't had time to seek professional help. So I was with my boyfriend for 3 years, I'm crazy obsessed with him till this day and he is with me we love each other soooooo much but we had broken up for a few months and I moved on and he moved on but we ended up having sex and he finished inside me (we were not together) and he did something that made me really upset so I had sex with a friend a week later and he finished inside me as well (he says he didn't and wants no part) so a month later I find out I'm pregnant and me and the guy I love got back together. He doesn't know what I did though and I never thought about it until now, were getting married in a few days and I was so excited we love this baby but yesterday he called me crying that he had a fight with his mom  and that she asked for a DNA test and that's when it finally hit me how stupid and such a **** that I was :'( I been going CRAZYY literally since yesterday I want to kill myself thought about hurting my baby but I just can't I'm seriously going crazy I've been laying in my bed kicking and screaming and praying for the past 5 hours. I don't want to choose between my babys life, mine or my relationship with the love of my life. Losing any of those would kill me!! I'm 10 weeks pregnant and I'm 18 years old Im getting married but now not looking forward to having this baby because it might not be his!! Idk what to do!! I'm so lost, confused, deppressed, crazy!! Please I need advice.......judge me if you must but I really dont need it........

[crazycurious11]

Thank you so much. I hope its his :(

[lucilya]

Please don't harm your baby or yourself!  I am also due November 29, last period February 23, had sex on March 3rd and 4th (March 4-9 high fertility) With your numbers, sounds like you might be pregnant with your fiance's baby. Keeping you in prayer!

[crazycurious11]

Thank you I will tell my mom soon. I love her and I know she won't judge me. Thank you all for you it still feels nice to know I have people to talk to. Also if you have a similar story to mine please message me I'd like to hear it.

[brit0585]

You need to talk to your parents also. They need to know how you are feeling but you need medical help also not just a forum.

[brit0585]

Dont lie to him thats exactly what you are doing by not telling him. But killing your baby is exactly that! killing a human being. You are falling more in love with your baby but want to kill it?? Its not healthy for you either. It has life long reporcussions not just mental but physical and raises your risk of breast cancer later in life.. You need to sit down and talk to him and a letter is a good idea. Remember your baby at this time has a heart beat its toes are forming and eyes are mostly open. Your baby has ears and its lips are beginning to form as well. Your baby is a human being and before you go and kill it remember that your boyfriend will probably leave you for killing it. Be truthful with him because it will be the best in the outcome. If he leaves you and you kill your baby you are left with absolutely nothing. At least you will always have your baby no matter what!

[LindyNjose24]

being 18 is not an excuse for anything. Ur an adult n u made an adult decision to have unprotected sex n u need to be HONEST. If u marry that guy before u tell him then he's gonna think u trapped him (which u r ) if u wait to tell him after the wedding n he's mad enough he can just divorce u! He not stuck with u if ur married he will just divorce u n then ur b youn, divorced, n either a mom or a girl dealing with killing her child n losing everything  n as far as getting an abortion that's all ur choice ur the only one that had to deal with the pain n guilt the rest of ur life

Tell him b4 u make ur life worse! N u two can make a decision together about keeping the baby or not