suicide?!?!

[crazycurious11]

Okay I know I'm going to get a lot of negative comments on this but I need help and this just hit me yesterday so I haven't had time to seek professional help. So I was with my boyfriend for 3 years, I'm crazy obsessed with him till this day and he is with me we love each other soooooo much but we had broken up for a few months and I moved on and he moved on but we ended up having sex and he finished inside me (we were not together) and he did something that made me really upset so I had sex with a friend a week later and he finished inside me as well (he says he didn't and wants no part) so a month later I find out I'm pregnant and me and the guy I love got back together. He doesn't know what I did though and I never thought about it until now, were getting married in a few days and I was so excited we love this baby but yesterday he called me crying that he had a fight with his mom  and that she asked for a DNA test and that's when it finally hit me how stupid and such a **** that I was :'( I been going CRAZYY literally since yesterday I want to kill myself thought about hurting my baby but I just can't I'm seriously going crazy I've been laying in my bed kicking and screaming and praying for the past 5 hours. I don't want to choose between my babys life, mine or my relationship with the love of my life. Losing any of those would kill me!! I'm 10 weeks pregnant and I'm 18 years old Im getting married but now not looking forward to having this baby because it might not be his!! Idk what to do!! I'm so lost, confused, deppressed, crazy!! Please I need advice.......judge me if you must but I really dont need it........

[smiley_one]

I don't think telling a lie like that way to go with this.

[crazycurious11]

I could say I miscarried. I know everyone probably think I'm a horrible person and I am but I'm 18 I'm scared, I dont know what to do I don't want to tell him now :(

[smiley_one]

If you abort the baby, you will probably lose him, which you stated earlier you didn't want to do. If he loves this baby as much as you say, I highly doubt he will care if there may be another dad. There IS still a chance he IS the father. Do not chance killing a baby the can possibly belong to him. Tell him before the wedding. If anyone asks why it has been postponed just say you decided to wait until after the baby is born or something.

[crazycurious11]

Thanks but I think it would be easier to get over this abortion than to get over him. My world does revolve around him people just don't understand. I just can't tell him before the wedding its already been postponed once it can't happen again or everyone will take us as a joke. Can someone just please please help me figure out how to do it after the wedding if I don't decide to get this abortion

[rachb11]

If you do not want your kid even in the end of all this give it up for adoption. There are tons of families out there that cannot have kids and would love your child and provide the best for it. Please do not hurt that little innocent baby. As for your fiance the longer you wait to tell him the worse its going to be. for you and him. I know you love him but no world revolves around a man. not to sound rude what so ever but you really need to talk to a therapist or something. Its normal to feel depressed. I had a friend that even after her baby was born she wanted nothing to do with him, but she never did anything about it. He's now a healthy 3 year old and she loves him more than anything. Its normal to feel this way. Just PLEASE don't do anything to yourself our that baby. The baby already loves you unconditionally. Even IF and remember I said IF, he does leave you your a strong woman who can get through this life is tough and sh.t happens. You can't just give up on yourself. Think of how you would make your family feel if you committed suicide. They would be devestated and the guy who loves you would. Just please start thinking positive. Everyone on this site is here for you. But like I said maybe it would help talking to someone personally. I really hope things look up for you. And you should really sit down with your fiance and tell him BEFORE the wedding. Just have an adult conversation with him. Discuss your options. Besides abortion. I know its your decision but you're baby is a BABY now, not just a fetus. :/ good luck girlie.

[tink1890]

Are you positive you ovulated on the 9th???   Ur ovulation could be off by a few days.   My last period was feb 8th and my due date is nov 15th my conception date was the 22nd or supposed conception.  My ovulation tracker though said i was supped to ovulate the 19th.  So dont count on ur ovulation date.