suicide?!?!

[crazycurious11]

Okay I know I'm going to get a lot of negative comments on this but I need help and this just hit me yesterday so I haven't had time to seek professional help. So I was with my boyfriend for 3 years, I'm crazy obsessed with him till this day and he is with me we love each other soooooo much but we had broken up for a few months and I moved on and he moved on but we ended up having sex and he finished inside me (we were not together) and he did something that made me really upset so I had sex with a friend a week later and he finished inside me as well (he says he didn't and wants no part) so a month later I find out I'm pregnant and me and the guy I love got back together. He doesn't know what I did though and I never thought about it until now, were getting married in a few days and I was so excited we love this baby but yesterday he called me crying that he had a fight with his mom  and that she asked for a DNA test and that's when it finally hit me how stupid and such a **** that I was :'( I been going CRAZYY literally since yesterday I want to kill myself thought about hurting my baby but I just can't I'm seriously going crazy I've been laying in my bed kicking and screaming and praying for the past 5 hours. I don't want to choose between my babys life, mine or my relationship with the love of my life. Losing any of those would kill me!! I'm 10 weeks pregnant and I'm 18 years old Im getting married but now not looking forward to having this baby because it might not be his!! Idk what to do!! I'm so lost, confused, deppressed, crazy!! Please I need advice.......judge me if you must but I really dont need it........

[brit0585]

Well you can check but I dont think his family can take your baby. You have to agree if they go to court and ask for DNA but they cant just take the baby without you knowing.

[crazycurious11]

Ah I'm so scared :'( my parents love my bf if they find out its not his they will hate me and my baby :(

[KTowne]

First of all, the second you see that baby, he/she will take priority over your boyfriend, there is NOTHING like a child's love, second of all, if you get married, and you do a paternity test and it's not his, then he's going to be even more hurt that you weren't honest with him. Put yourself in his shoes, if he sees how remorseful you are, he might be sympathetic. And only being a week apart, it's hard telling who's it is, BUT, do you know the date of your last missed period, how long your cycles usually are, when you ovulate? Did your doctor give you a conception date?

[jr885150]

There is a saying I live by.."Going to have to trust that being turned away from anything or anyone is simply Gods way of saying, Careful kiddo you were going the wrong way". This means that if he leaves you then it wasnt the right path and there is something else waiting for you. Trust me I have been through Hell and back and now see that it was all leading me to were I am now. Suicide is not the answer. Sometimes you will feel like it really is but when you get older you will look back at how your life turned out and you will see what you missed out on...keep your head up and know that know matter what you are a fighter!

[Knucks10]

Don't do anything you'll regret. Try not to think so negatively. I promise that everything is gonna be ok. Don't let anyone stress you out. If the baby its your husbands then that's fine if its the other guys oh well. Anything that happens is for a reason. You just have to think on the bright side. Dont even think of suicide. Call someone close to you and tell them how your feeling. please pray.

[brit0585]

You will have a better idea of whose it is by when your period started like KT said. And I totally agree your baby is going to love you no matter what. Nothing will matter when you hold that baby and you may think that about  your parents but something about babies I just feel like people cant hate them because they didnt do anything. I dont mean that in a mean way but babies make people happy and your parents will love your baby no matter what. They may be sad and dissapointed and angry but i believe they will eventually get over it and it will all turn out right. Just think you are going to be able to hold your baby in 30 weeks and its going to go FAST!!! You have lots of support on this forum and even though we dont know who you are and you dont know us you have people praying for you and that is what is so wonderful and amazing is that people you dont even know care about you and your baby and you can alsways ask for help on here. Still you need to talk to someone close to you because you shouldnt go thru this alone. Its not healthy for you.