trying SO hard not to relapse

[acline93]

This is a bit of a rant :/

I want a cigarette so friggin' bad, and I haven't had one in so long but I'm so stressed out right now. Yesterday, my sister decided to leave her abusive husband, so her and my nephew are now living with us. And today, we get a knock on the door from where my brother decided to leave his wife because "she's getting fat"...so we have a full house. It is so loud in here, my son hasn't really moved all day I guess from all the commotion, and you have people screaming every which way you turn at each other. Not to mention that I usually go to sleep around 9, and that was 3 hours ago so I'm tired, irritable, and just flat out grumpy. Before I was pregnant, I would go on a drive to clear my head, but that was also when I smoked, and EVERYONE knows what smokers do when they drive...they smoke. So now I'm sitting here literally biting all my nails off from where my nerves are so wrecked, and I just want a cigarette so bad. Ugh.

End of rant :(

[acline93]

oh wow, the mint lifesavers are a great idea! and thanks @xmybubix

[xmybubix]

About two weeks ago i gave up giving up as i was srarting to get too stressed , its upset my partner but over here its normal to b pregs nd smoke, i know its still bad , but do try hun, be strong for your little one!

[luvinlife1231]

So did u smoke menthol or no? i smoked menthols & when i feel as if i need one, i get  those mint life savers (the green bag) and my hubby did the regular lifesavers. It has helped us both. But do remember, u need to calm down, you being so shook up not good for either of u. Hubby also used toothpicks or straws too.

[ashkevin13]

I know the feeling... Throughout the holidays, I have been stressed out and would love a cig.. but I know better and just like the other lady said. My husband would kill me. lol I have gone four months smoke free.. BUT just wanted to encourage you, cuz your son will thank you for it once born.

SO GO ACLINE GO! YOU CAN DO IT! DONT SMOKE. LOL hopefully things get better hun.

[acline93]

haha smoke a pencil...I need something to chew on and I'll be good.

[mckee513]

Smoke a pencil??? Chew on gummy candies?

[acline93]

my little brother stole my headphones and broke them so no, I don't have any :( and they're way too cheap to get a hotel. We have a 4 bedroom house, and I'm pregnant(so that's technically 2) and then all of them is 6 more...UGH I need a cigarette. my nails are officially destroyed.

[acline93]

I know, I want one, but I'd feel so bad because I've done so great this whole time. And my mom would KILL me.

[mckee513]

I know that feeling! It will pass but as for now its just a grin and bear it kinda thing. Got headphones? Put in some fab music and try to b alone at least in your head.

[firsttimer19]

I would just kick everyone out tell them to get a hotel or shut it! That's what I do to my brother lol

[lizancar]

I want one too but my husband will kill me if he knew I smoked one just find something else to do :/