When I was 13, I sometimes got REALY hyper, sometimes couldnt remember that period in the morning. At 14 I was depressed for about 4 months. In the last little while (im 16 now) Ive been Going between depressed , usualy for a few hours, sometimes whole day, then other times when i get realy energetic, sometimes act (to others) like a "lunatic".
More and more recently even when i'm not in one of those phases things are still off. Ive been withdrawing socially, and just from everything in general. Im almost always off doing something else in my mind. Ive had at least 3 instances of sleep paralysis. I occasionaly hear my name called when no one called,4 weeks ago I asked (i dont know why) 3 questions in my mind, Each one was answered by an external voice, each word was distinctive, but incoherent. Each question a different voice answered. Thats the only Time i heard voices. I occasionally get a sense of euphoria centralized on a specific body part (usually head or legs).
I often talk to myself, often in front of a mirror. Sometimes I cannot talk, like I can't get words to come out. I don't mean in social situations, where i don't say much, i mean alone I physically cannot get words to come out. I prefer being left alone in deep thought, sometimes just starring while thinking, ignoring my surroundings. I only have a few friends, all of whom I am very close to, with others I usually don't talk, unless its a topic I find interesting.Even with friends sometimes i'm just there, thinking, not talking to them. I have very strong views, especially politically.
I often make many, many plans, but I often don't act on them.
I seem to have a need to be above a human, but at the same time I don't usually feel superior to others. At 14 I had a phase of clinical lycanthropy. Now I am obsessed with becoming a cyborg, spending much time thinking about it. As I am what people consider intelligent, I come up with ideas for artificial organs, and brain enhancing chips. I am acctualy trying to go into nanotechnology, then use that for biomedical engineering.
At first, I noticed alot of the oddities that got me concerned. Now I notice alot less, but looking back (and from friends) I seem to be getting worse. I should also add i have major problems getting to sleep, and once i'm asleep I oversleep.
There is alot I didn't mention, but I mentioned some major things.
From others experience, does this sound like Schizophrenia? If not, maybe more like Bipolar? I'm getting into a psychiatrist soon, but ive already had to wait about 3 monthes since I first asked for help. I just want to know what to expect. Thanks in advance.