Day 10 off Subs/Zubsolv

[Ready2befree]

Well got through the weekend with the kids.  Jetskiing...playing in pool...batting cages...trampoline...so I would say I'm coming into my own.  Considering before when I was on subs I didn't have the desire to do anything fun.  These pills were sucking all the fun out of me.  I love fun now if I can get my belly laughs going that would be great.  I'm barely sleeping but here's the craziest thing.  I feel more alive than I did when I was getting 10-14 hrs.  I'm crying at the drop of a hat.  Songs that have touching lyrics are killing me softly.  Listen to Passenger - Let her Go
If your spouse was victim to your behaviors like mine..there is absolutely  no reason for them to have stayed with us.  The people that know of our addiction  but yet continue  to be in our corners deserve something short of the biggest medal but importantly  they need to RECEIVE us in a whole firm and that means CLEAN AND SOBER.   It's selfish of us to expect and receive over and over meanwhile not giving because  of our selfish addict mind.  So let's so this...I cannot wait until day 20!...
BTW tomorrow is day 10
peace to you all!

[Ready2befree]

Thanks man.  What a journey.  This is my 3rd strike and I'm out relapse.  Seriously  I'm done this time.  My girl keeps saying "remember  how you feel right now."  Shes right! I feel so alive but yet still withdrawing.  The best part is tomorrow will most definitely  be better than today.  I have a 12pm tee time set with my buddy that I haven't seen or golfed with in a very long time due to the "not giving a crap  mood" while on subs.  I'm doing more in the 1st 10 days getting clean and sober than the last 3 months.  So yes I would say this is the very best move to make.  Feels good to feel good.  For anyone out there struggling...........YOU CAN DO THIS! You have to remember  like anything else..you will 1st have to make the decision  you want a better life.  from there your willpower will need to empower you.  Most ppl don't have will power.  Or at least they don't think they do but the fact us you do you just have to stop giving excuses as to why not..and start giving reasons as to why you should! I promise all your dreams will come true if you free yourself from DRUG$!

PEACE TO YOU ALL!

[BearsFan1966]

You sound awesome! So happy for you and yes I so understand the crying, doing the same even at almost 40 days!
Keep up the great work and great attitude!