2 Weeks Clean... Again

[hiskidd]

Hi All! I feel like I have been outta touch a bit. Today is Day 14 for me, which is amazing compared to Day 4 - not sure if I'd make it.

I just wanted to say thank you to the people who strive to help others on this forum. In emailing a professor about her younger brother who is battling pain pills addiction, I told her I could not have made it without God, my wife, and Medhelp.org's forums.

This is my second time getting this far since Christmas time - I got to 40 days and then thought I was strong enough to take one here, or another there, etc. Strangely, I almost feel like this relapse will help me to not relapse a third time. I pray it does.

If you're in early WD's, be encouraged, eat well, exercise if you can, and fight, fight, fight. Oh, and as skeptical as I was, acupuncture has really helped a lot. Blessings to all, David

[eyeofhorus2010]

I've probably quit a couple of dozen times over the past 10 years and the 6 week mark would always find me rationalizing that I can take a couple today if I promise not to do it again for at least 3 or 4 weeks and that way I'll always keep a handle on it. The thing is though I would go maybe a week and do it again and then two or three days later I'd be in it again until I was full blown active again.

Today I'm 144 days clean. I know in my heart that If I take just one or two then I will have started the launch sequence to raging addiction again. I hit 60 days and most of the pressure to use seemed to melt away. Now 5 months clean I'm starting to forget what the high felt like so I no longer have any real cravings.

Staying sober for life begins with 1 day, then 1 week, then 2 weeks, so forth and so on.

14 Days? That's huge because for me the first 14 days were much harder than the last 130 have been. Keep it up.

[swflafun]

David - Congrats on day 14. This is a good post. I don't think anyone has not relapsed at least once, took me five times before I got it right.
Remember what you wrote...you THOUGHT you were strong enough to take one here and there. None of us are. Don't EVER forget that.
Keep it up, and congrats again.

[atthebeach]

actually today is 18 days. yea.

[atthebeach]

hey david congrats on those 2 weeks. good for you. keep the faith, trust,hope,cling,believe you can do all things through Christ Jesus who gives you strength. does your church have a support group for addicts? if not check around  the ag churches have an overcomers meeting, i think the methodist group is called celebrate recovery. "be strong in the Lord & never give up hope. youre going to do great things i already know. GOD'S got HIS hand on you so don't live life in fear.".....keep  listening to christian music.  you and the LORD make a majority. greater is HE that is in you then he that is in this world.
blessings to you
debbie

[vicki595]

Chocolate is always good!

Yes,this relapse may have helped you in the long run!   Two weeks is great...definitely look into recovery care of some kind. It's worked for me since my relapse last year! Now,I'm going on a year...

Stay strong and get on the forum more often!

[tiggz1977]

Just a questions did u get any withdrawal symptoms that caused you to use again? like PAWS. 40 days then you started using again. Thats what happened to me. :-( and I too thought ok just a few days of taking them ill then ill be fine. well 3 months later and wow... i forgot what hold these pills put on you lie to yourself.. false pain, ugh... Its a nasty drug. in all the same im glad God made it this way.. SO I know not to abuse it again :-) The more I have to struggle to get of of my problem the more and more I know I will never go down that road again! God Bless!  PS IF you feel Depressed or just terrible BLEH after about day 8 :-) i learned the first time, eat chocolate!!! and lots of it.. I have 2 huge bars of hershey on my fridge waiting for me later :-) eat chocolate!! im serious too it will help your depression also and give ya alittle kick in the butt of energy!