4 day sub detox

[alicelost]

Im trying again folks-i wrote in a few times-and i thank you for your help(sp.thanks to refusingbondage)-
So-today is day 2 of my 4 day sub detox-Has anyone had success w/ this kind of plan?
I was on sub after relapsing this fall-but found it hard to jump even on crumbs-it became a psychological thing-as i was on maitainence for 2 yrs-and remained opiate free after coming off sub-for 2 yrs-i was paralysed w/ fear getting off it..this time.-after being on very low doses for 6 weeks.
I relapsed after 5 days of no sub-for 10 days..i have one 8 mg sub-and am trying it this way-
I think this may work(i did a hospital detox similar to this)
I waited 26 hrs before i took 2 mgs of sub-this worked really well-i was ill enough to really feel the differance.
This morning took approx. 2 mgs-/and ill do the same the next 2 days..
I did a hospital detox-several yrs ago w/ bupe shots-(0.9 mgs) once a day for 4 days-and was released on the 5th day-to very minor w/ds-i thought about the sub protocols-used now-the doses are thru the roof-and then its not just detox-its maitainence-cos your now strung out on sub-
Im just jumping off-after the 4th day-and my actual detox w/ be done-PAWS will come-as it does c/t-or medical detox-there is no escape-Im not giving myself time to adjust to the med-and fall back in the trap..
I thought id share this-if anyone else was trying to figure out how to do a short sub detox-
I was absolutely readdicted to my DOC after 10 days-i felt full w/d symptoms and they were alleviated-by only 2 mgs-
We'll see what happens after i jump-im sure ill be feeling some pain-i have some benzos for the aftermath-rls/etc.
But theres no way to get out w/out feeling residual symptoms-and i know this-yet i screwed up my last detox-
but thru that relapse i realised if i want to get off the opiates-its gonna be hard-sub/or no sub-and to use the medication to alleviate the worst of it-and deal w/ the post-acute symptoms-
I kicked on new years eve day..
I wish all of us health peace and freedom from addiction..
Happy new years to all of us!
alice

[alicelost]

Thanks so much for your quick response..Happy new years to you-I think its amazing that you feel great and loving yourself-well-thats what its all about-!I want to be there-i have never loved myself-i have clinical depression-and have moments of clarity-feel ok-but i get very down..doesn't help when your kicking as things become more overwhelming-But im going in this-with the attitude of it must be done-and i failed-but im trying again-I have no choice-ive depleted my funds-and barely have enough money to put food on the table-never mind-heating oil-which i got less than a week left-and its freezing cold out/so-the time is now so i can work next week-and get back on my feet.
I really screwed up this time..but i screw up every time i think its going to be different-
Heres to a better Year!
peace/
alice

[ochooked]

Hi Alicelost--- Welcome to the forum ---  you are at the right place.   Just reading your post, I would say that you are going into this with your eyes open and knowledge of what to expect ---- Refusingbondage certainly knows what she is talking about.  Limiting your intake of Sub to only a few days is a very good way to take it -- just for help over the initial stage.  After than you will have some W/D's but as long as you know it and prepare for them, they shouldn't be too bad.  To those who believe that they won't have any W/D's or are not prepared to do any suffering, I doubt their chances of getting clean.  I think you will make it.  Several things I did that helped me --- First, I cut off my supply - told my doctor -- no going back - even in a weak moment -- make the commitment.  Next, I read every post on this site -- got all of the differing opinions --- that helps --  When the going got tough - - I KNEW that it would end -- my depression, the shakes, the runs, hot/cold sweats, mental fog, and above all the lethargy/lack of any energy -----ALL of this was going to end -   I believed the folks on this site -- and you know  - they were right --  all of these symptoms did end.  I am brand new person -- and I love me.  Hey, you picked a great day to quit -- a new year and a new start ---be strong --- you CAN do this.   Please keep posting - when one thread gets down close to the bottom, start another and keep writing -- it will help you and others.   All the best.  Happy New Year.