Hydrocodone addict

[ImOverThisBS]

Hello I've been reading the posts for a few weeks in preparation. And I'm now only 24hours off them as I write this. At this point I feel a little restless but I'm confident I can do this with the help of my love. I was reading the posts and crying this morning because I kept hearing my all to private and debilitating secret being told over and over. It's really comforting to know that I'm not alone. So the main difference in my story from the others I've read is the number I take every day. Up until about a year ago I was pretty steady at 15-20 a day. I'm at the point now that I'm not really sure how many but I'm sure I took 30 a day at least on average probably up to 45 or more even. I stopped keeping track, probably because I didn't want to know how badly I was/am treating my body. So I guess I don't have any questions really, just wanted to share and hopefully help someone. Please comment, it would really help me get through this.

I'll take all the help I can get :)

Thanks,
Sean

[ImOverThisBS]

So I'm here at day 4 and I feel better than I did yesterday, thanks to all the love and support from the people on this forum. The advice and experiences I've read have been so inspirational.

[toothfairie]

Congrats on day 4!  you are doing great..just hang tough...so glad you have the support of your gf!  it helps alot to have people around us that can help.  Life if so much better off the pills....it's an amazing feeling not counting pills and spending all your money on them...actually taking a vaca without worrying about running out!  keep up the good fight!  you can do it!  

[ImOverThisBS]

Made it through another night. Looking forward to today :)
Day 4

[ImOverThisBS]

My appetite is soooo good today, bout to eat some dinner woohoo

[ImOverThisBS]

You can do this.... Just follow the Thomas recipe and you will make it through I know it. I was scared too but I made the jump and now toward the end of day 3 im wondering why I didn't just do it sooner. It also really helps if you have someone to be there with you. Keep me posted on your progress

Your friend,
Sean

[ImOverThisBS]

You have definitely come to the right place stay strong and we will get through this together. I know you can do this. Okay first off look up and follow the Thomas recipe! It has made my WD's so much more bearable. Take hot bathes with Epsom salt it really helps relax your body. I tell you if it wasn't for this forum and my girl this would be a lot more difficult.

So you're distracting yourself with YouTube. Are you into manga? It might sound lame but if you have Netflix check out "attack on Titan" a friend told me about it and it's been helping to keep my mind off WD's

Keep posting it can be very helpful and therapeutic

Your friend,
Sean

[Cmr2]

Way to go man. I am a couple days away from my stop date and in scared to death for what is to come. You give me hope that I can do this I was taking a significant amount less than you (about 10, 10 mg a day sometimes more). Keep it up. Just wanted to let you know how great a job your doing

[Ahkh]

Amazing....I missed work today and tomorrow and Sunday I am off. Just let's do it together....I want to be alive and really don't want to become homeless and die one in a trash room. What about you? We will never go again right? I am not for sure and I trust u too...

[ImOverThisBS]

I've been taking a lot of Epsom salt bathes and the restless/jittery body feeling I had the first two days is subsiding. Overall I feel better than I did yesterday

[Ahkh]

Oh Hi, just want to let you know that I am on the same ship with you, we stopped at the same time, but mine was only 10 a day....it is my hour 33rd I took 1/5 100/325.

This my first time looking at forums, I think I found good place..

Ok tell me how it's going.... I got rashes today...I have dyria, plus my mind telling to go and take only one pill. But Nooo Nooo...give me your hand and let's be healthy and normal person, let's safe our lives back.

I did nothing, no vitamins, no any special food nothing.... Just sleep and watching prank shows in YouTube ... Does anything helped you????

Oh my God I have a lot of sleep though, I wish it doesn't change....

Ah

[ariley13]

Ha! I think you're thinking to much. It happens to us all. Try to stay out of your head and just be. (If that is possible.) Try to watch something that will make you laugh, or put on some good music and dance! I always counted starting the next day. So if you took the last of your pills on Tuesday, Wednesday would be day one, Thursday day two, and today day three. So a huge congrats on day 3!!  How are you feeling this evening?

[ImOverThisBS]

72 hours since my FINAL dose!!!!!!

[ImOverThisBS]

Okay I'm hanging in there.... I have a question though. I took the last of the pills 4 10/325's Tuesday at around 2pm. So I've been counting since then but I was wondering if I start counting after the effects wear off. If I count from the last dose it will be 72 hours today at 2pm yay or not? Am I thinking too much? I'm just expecting really bad WD's but still just feels like a really bad cold. Am I thinking too much? Does it matter?

[ariley13]

Glad you were able to get some sleep. That's good news indeed! Congratulations on making it 60 hrs. You are in the thick of it right now, but everything should start getting better very quickly. Hang in there, keep up the fight, and keep posting. Take care...

[ImOverThisBS]

Hey everybody. 5 am I've been up for an hour. I got more sleep than last night. Still feeling about the same almost 60 hours now.

[ImOverThisBS]

My girl is the best she's making me some herbal tea and she has been soooooo great.... I honestly believe having her to get better for is making this whole process a lot easier. There's nothing I wouldn't do for her. I know I need to get better for myself but she is my motivation I CANT let her down. Plus I gotta stick around cuz I'm gonna ask that girl to marry me once I'm clean. Sorry just emotional and rambling.....

Once again thanks for all the encouraging words and apologies if I missed answering any questions

[ImOverThisBS]

I was wondering when I was gonna start to crave one but so far so good, thanks for the heads up. I'm just more worried about the physical part... My girlfriend and I have been talking a lot about how to handle it when I'm emotionally weak. Not to mention I AM DETERMINED TO STOP FOREVER

[odaat1]

Hi,
The first couple of days, I felt so free....I was doing all the suggested remedies for physical withdrawal.  The epsom salts also help detoxify...but it was about a week into it, the emotional roller coaster started.  But I was prepared for it, because the good folks on this forum told me what to expect, and that they too had experienced what I was going through.  So, I didn't feel alone.  Stay close to the forum, it saved my life!

[ImOverThisBS]

I'm not really sure what's going on.... I'm coming up on 48 hours soon and I feel better than yesterday. I'm assuming it's just the Epsom salts and tyrosine.... Lilbock said her bad WD's didn't start till 48-72 hours so guess I'm expecting to start feeling really crappy soon. Does that make sense or am I just thinking too much haha

[Spike2654]

How ya holdin' up boss? everything still going ok? At work but was thinking about you and wanted to give a quick shout out! The Thomas recipe literally saved me, it was the difference between getting out of bed and still working and maintaining "life"...it wasn't pretty but it very much helped with the wd symptoms, good for you!
I was very emotional...shoot, who am I kidding, I'm still emotional, HA, I know it's from being 'numb' to emotion for so long it seems like that racket is sure firing on alllll cylinders now! haha, you're right tough, purge all of that crap out, it's good to have feelings!! and it's OKAY if we don't feel great or perfect (hence why I chased pills...to 'feel' good and perfect instead of just dealing with life!), life is about ups and downs and enjoying it no matter where we are at.
Check in when you can, hugs to your tough lady at your side too!! :)

[ImOverThisBS]

Other than the ant-acid I'm following the Thomas recipe

[ImOverThisBS]

Thank you soooo much spike ;) I've been preparing for the worst like you said and so far so good. I'm super emotional too, crying as I read all these complete strangers soothing words. It's so wonderful to hear from and talk to people who have been through it. I can't thank you all enough,

Also I'm finding this forum to be a real help, you know emotional cleansing/purge

[ImOverThisBS]

Thanks ;)

[Spike2654]

Keep rocking it out Sean!! Yes, the nights are the worst, just the dark, quiet, not much going on time that we should be sleeping through but can't. I will say that if you really psych yourself out thinking the symptoms are coming and are going to be so bad, they actually don't seem as bad. Y'know..that whole hope for the best but expect the worse type deal. I found out that the worry and anticipation of what's to come was way worse than the actual symptoms.
Epsom salts definitely make a difference. Are you taking other supplements/OTC stuff other than the antacid?
No matter how rough or not rough your wd period is, you know you can't go back! live free and hug that girl for sticking by you through this!