This is more to get some things off of my chest, rather than a question - but advise and comments would be helpful.
I was taking 30 10mg Lortabs at a time (anywhere between 325mg of tylenol to 660mg) for quite some time. When I would return home from work, I would pop another 30 for a daily total of 60 (600mg). I am not sure why, and how I am still alive.
I hit rock bottom on August 4th, when the police intervened. Not really going to go into all of the detail, but I went from a clean criminal record, to having 3 felony's overnight. I lost my high paying job, and may lose everything (possession wise) that I have. But - I do still have my loving wife, beautiful daughter, and my LIFE. My wife was unaware that I had a problem, as well was my whole family - so I was alone and had felt defeated.
The habit started after 2 foot surgeries - taking 2 a day. Then 4, 6, 8...up to 30 twice daily.
I have been clean for a total of 8 days, and the wd's seem to have diminished. Now the hard part is functioning, or having any energy / motivation to want to do anything. Now I am unemployed, so I try to do things to keep me busy (but that too is hard). I have voluntarily enrolled myself into counseling starting Thursday (Aug 13) where I will undergo group therapy, and individual counseling sessions. I am ready for the long haul, and no turning back for me.
How long will it take for me to get the old person back (happy-go-lucky). I do have cravings, sometimes very strong. My family is understanding, and I usually talk to my wife or go for a walk. That really helps me.
Any advise, comments, or anything really would be great. 8 days is early, but it's one day at a time, one minute at a time (even though easier said than done).
Thanks for listening.... 8 days and counting!