Hmm... well it sounds like you've already made your decision. You've chosen the drugs over her. I wish you good luck.
And we're here if you ever decide you're ready to stop.
do you want to be clean and sober?
or are you only doing it for her?
you have to be sick and tired of being sick and tired from using.
then you can work on your recovery.
are you still using heroin, crack and methadone now?
have you ever tried to get clean?
Essentially, this forum is for folks who want to get clean from substances...so getting off all that junk would be my advice.
Sure. If you are not ready to seek drug treatment and/or do not want it, that is your choice. I suggest that you do not bring others into your addicted life, because it's bad enough as it is. I will add you to my prayers that you seek help someday. Blessings - Blu