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JULY - days clean Role Call !! Shout out your day count!
Hope whoever usually does this doesn't mind, but I noticed we didn't have a July Roll Call for everyone to give a shout out with their days clean.
So I will start, because today is DAY 51 for me, and this forum helped IMMEASURABLY!
So I will start, because today is DAY 51 for me, and this forum helped IMMEASURABLY!
I have 45 days clean from subs, but in reality I'm in w/d from all drugs as I was the type of person that would take anything I could get my hands on. How I'm still alive is anyone's guess, but I am and I can tell all the people reading this thread that are still using and think they are to weak to do it. You are so wrong. I've never looked back and once you get a taste for fresh air and freedom you won't look back either. Congrats to everyone on this thread, you are all hero's in my book....
I wish I could call my length of time infinity. To infinity and beyond would be even better. I would only wish to share with you and this forum how difficult it has been at times. In truth the only reason I even posted this is because of the length of time shout out and today it reaffirmed for me just what was at stake and how fragile my sobriety truly is.
I would not be here if it was not for the the fact I had contracted HCV some 21 + years ago and am paying a very heavy price for it. Of the course of the last eight months during tx I have considered how easy it would be to go right down the street and pick up and get some relief, and that scares the living hell out me as much as not having success in tx.
I have even had friends suggest I should go ahead and do this in order to get rid of the discomfort. My addiction is alive and well. I am 55 years old and started getting high when I was 10. Growing up with older brothers who are club members, made that way of life normal, natural, and the only one that was right if I was to be like them.
I have to remember where I came from and hoe I got here. If this is of any benefit I had to spend 18 months in a long term residential program in Anaheim Ca. ( Hope House) in 1992 to break my Heroin addiction that was after Northrop Aircraft spent $30,000 for 30 days in the Chemical Dependency Unit in west Anaheim, that didn't last one day after my release.
After losing my wife, son and job and ended up living homeless for almost a year did I make to the Hope House, 21 years ago on my birthday 7665 days ago.
But in that time time I have kept that monster alive through many different avenues, trading one drug for another.
And I have to because I need to completely honest fix my no alcohol date and tell you the only reason I stopped drinking was I ended up in the ER for chest pains on 5-12-2012, 409 days ago where I was told my heart was basically all right but my liver was not so good, in fact if I didn't do something about my drinking I wouldn't see my 55th birthday, so I had to make a choice live or die, I choose to try and stop drinking and live.
On 8-21-2012 I saw my Hep C Dr. for the first time, and began tx 11-30-2012. And my life has taking on a whole new meaning of living hell since.
I wish I had bragging rights there is no such thing, truly the only day I have is today, and sometimes its only remembering where I came, what I have lost and what I am fighting for that keeps me sober.
So you see 1 day or 7665 days is the same to me, and yet the price I am paying right now for what I was doing 25 years ago seems on fair, length of sobriety is important of course but just maybe had I taken it seriously back in 1986, and gotten clean then I may not have lost my family, and probably would not be engaged in this battle to save my life. And honestly compared to some I have it easy.
In closing I would only offer you support in your endeavor to get clean and offer you the insight, that the damage we cause ourselves can be truly life threatening even after years of being of the needle.
Sincerely,
Tim
I would not be here if it was not for the the fact I had contracted HCV some 21 + years ago and am paying a very heavy price for it. Of the course of the last eight months during tx I have considered how easy it would be to go right down the street and pick up and get some relief, and that scares the living hell out me as much as not having success in tx.
I have even had friends suggest I should go ahead and do this in order to get rid of the discomfort. My addiction is alive and well. I am 55 years old and started getting high when I was 10. Growing up with older brothers who are club members, made that way of life normal, natural, and the only one that was right if I was to be like them.
I have to remember where I came from and hoe I got here. If this is of any benefit I had to spend 18 months in a long term residential program in Anaheim Ca. ( Hope House) in 1992 to break my Heroin addiction that was after Northrop Aircraft spent $30,000 for 30 days in the Chemical Dependency Unit in west Anaheim, that didn't last one day after my release.
After losing my wife, son and job and ended up living homeless for almost a year did I make to the Hope House, 21 years ago on my birthday 7665 days ago.
But in that time time I have kept that monster alive through many different avenues, trading one drug for another.
And I have to because I need to completely honest fix my no alcohol date and tell you the only reason I stopped drinking was I ended up in the ER for chest pains on 5-12-2012, 409 days ago where I was told my heart was basically all right but my liver was not so good, in fact if I didn't do something about my drinking I wouldn't see my 55th birthday, so I had to make a choice live or die, I choose to try and stop drinking and live.
On 8-21-2012 I saw my Hep C Dr. for the first time, and began tx 11-30-2012. And my life has taking on a whole new meaning of living hell since.
I wish I had bragging rights there is no such thing, truly the only day I have is today, and sometimes its only remembering where I came, what I have lost and what I am fighting for that keeps me sober.
So you see 1 day or 7665 days is the same to me, and yet the price I am paying right now for what I was doing 25 years ago seems on fair, length of sobriety is important of course but just maybe had I taken it seriously back in 1986, and gotten clean then I may not have lost my family, and probably would not be engaged in this battle to save my life. And honestly compared to some I have it easy.
In closing I would only offer you support in your endeavor to get clean and offer you the insight, that the damage we cause ourselves can be truly life threatening even after years of being of the needle.
Sincerely,
Tim
every journey starts with that first step. You are on your way! Be proud of yourself, I am very proud for you!! GO GO GO!
1 1/2 days ok not as many as you all >> so glad to see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel >> but a starts a start stay strong and thanks for all the support :)
congrats to everyone!!!
I had to use my calculator for my above poster, lol, congrats to infinity to you!
For me, don't have a day count, it's been 1 year and 1 month.
Hugs,
Lily
I had to use my calculator for my above poster, lol, congrats to infinity to you!
For me, don't have a day count, it's been 1 year and 1 month.
Hugs,
Lily
A million billion miracles! haha! You are such a delight LisaH_NYC and YOU are a miracle, too~
After 10 on years of trying many times without getting past a few days I am at day 34 and happy as a camper without a craving what so ever. I feel like I am one of the blessed one who found the right path and I wish that I could write on every thread to share how I did it. But every person is constructed differently with separate thoughts, feelings, lifestyles, emotions, finances, and the list goes on. Good Luck Everyone!
I am floored by the number of days so many of you have. If my math is right, when I add up all of our clean days, I get .......a million billion miracles! (ok, math was never my strong point, but I am sure the miracles part is right!)
HI everybody give yourself a hand for being on the list weather it is a day a year or many years for me I havent touched an opete in 1364 days and benzos in about 15 months everyone keep pushing forward ...........................................Gnarly.................................
Congratulations to ALL of you on your clean time. What a blessing to be clean and sober. I am so grateful I have a happy, loving and caring life now. All negativity is gone thanks to the twelve steps of AA, God and lots of prayer. My clean and sober time is " 659" wonderful days. Truly a blessing. Let's all keep on going!!!
With the help of some wonderful people I've met on this site, and through the Grace of God, I'm 28-days clean today, and more determined than I can describe, to stay opiate-free forever.
COMMUNITY LEADER
5 yrs 2 months......
Way to go Oxy!!!!
Vicki.....sending prayers to your momma~
Way to go Oxy!!!!
Vicki.....sending prayers to your momma~
585 days! I wish everyone struggling to get out of the darkness of active addiction could see how wonderful life is when in recovery. It is a million times better than it ever was. Truly.
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Today I marched into PM, paid my $35 copay, and had a heart to heart with the doctor. I have ended the OXYCODONE scripts. Left there empty handed, but (I know this will sound silly) I had that "its Christmas Morning" feeling. Even called my wife at her work.
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That one I will handle with a phone call.
Congratulations to all, what an UPBEAT thread!!!!!
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