Anxious Avalanche

[Avalancheblanche]

O.K. I'm doing all the right things.  Excersize, eating right, protien, veggies, water. Suppliments......I feel more anxious today than I did my first day back to work.  Worse than the day after the Screaming 9 yr old going to sleep at 1:30 am slumber party.  What can I do.  I feel like I am going to turn inside out.  
I have to be "on" at work all the time and I forgot how.  Tell me this little setback is reversable!  I need to be right side out again

[Avalancheblanche]

Thanks, Mary, means a lot to me!

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

I understand. When I was going through my first months without my pills I just wanted to hide in my house. And that's what I did. I have lost so many friends because I felt like **** mentally and physically for so long. I think I had WD longer than anyone in here. It has been 11 months clean and I just now feel like I can get out and see people and do things again. I'm starting to have interest and be bored when I'm home. It's a good feeling. It takes a lot more out of some of us than others

[allaboutmary]

Oh , that is a non-stop job and dealing with all the people.  They expect you to talk all through the appointment. Try and get a good nights sleep.  You will be in my thoughts. Keep going and stay strong.   Mary

[Avalancheblanche]

It is important to me to give people a good experience.  I can have a quiet day, But, I dont want to make my clients uncomfortable.  It is really hard sometimes.  
I am SO hard on myself.  One of my biggest problems

[Avalancheblanche]

I am a hairstylist.  It is a wonderful job, until you are giong thru something like this.  I have a hard time Not wearing my heart on my sleeve.  

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

Why do you have to be so happy tomorrow? Can't you just be in a bad mood if you feel like it. If everyone is wondering what's up with you it's none of their business. Everyone has bad days and is not always in a good mood.Don't be so hard on yourself