Benedryl causing loss of reality?

[villaxx]

I am 15 years old.

About 7-8 months ago I was badly addicted to Benedryl. I would take 12-18 25mg tabs a night (the little pink pills). I started using benedryl due to my insomnia trouble I have had throughout my life and my doctor told me to take around 2-3 a night to get my natural sleeping schedule back. I took 4 the first night and fell asleep faster than ever and after about a week I was up to 8 a night as lower dosage would not work, guess my tolerance was raising.

After another 2 weeks I was up to 15 pills a night. I continued this abuse for a good month and a half or so every night. I also smoked a lot of Marijuana back then, like everyday all day. I soon stopped taking benedryl as I was feeling very weird such as, feeling fake or the dream like state during the day, being very depressed oddly, loosing interest in normal things, It was like I was loosing reality. Smoking Marijuana didn't help either it just made me feel that life was worthless and people around me actually felt like animals to me not like dog and cat animal just like organisms that I don't belong to and not even real.

Later I was grounded for a month straight. Didn't talk to friends, didn't talk to family, just smoked weed all day and thought about what the point of life was and got really depressed. Never attempted suicide or anything just thought about life ****. After being ungrounded I stopped it all.

I have now been clean from benedryl for 8 months and smoke weed once every 3 weeks with friends. I feel I am loosing reality sometimes. In a hour I can go from being so damn happy and loving life to being almost suicide depressive. I have never been the person that talks about his problems to family or friends so I guess this place is kinda like my therapist? Is this due to my abuse of an antihistamine and a Tetrahydrocannabinol? Is there any thing I can do to treat my depression like state? Do I have psychosis due to this abuse now, maybe I developed a bipolar syndrome? I feel to embarrassed to go to my parents and go to the doctor so medication would be a big step and would prefer just to get through this with my will power.

Sorry for the long post but thanks if you can help.

[cpdave]

What type of home is it I mean is it a mental type where there are doctors and nurses on staff or is it a home for runaways or something like that

[npb]

My grandson is in a home for children and they are giving him 4 a night and leyying him sleep untill 8or 9 the next day who do I report this to

[justlikeyou]

benedryl is a very bad drug, there are lots of natural ways to get good sleep, google them.

then do them.

[howdidthishappentome]

I have to second the end of what is said above.  You really have no idea how much love and patience, tolerance and understanding a parent holds for her child until you become a parent yourself.  

Funny thing is as I type I'm realizing my own mom wants to help me (even though I'm a 28 year old mom myself) with my own hidden addiction too.  She knows something is wrong just can't pin it down for sure.  

This is my first comment here; but I wanted to tell you that if you think there's even a small chance your parents will be there for you- even the tiniest- talk to them now.  They WANT to help. I promise.

[flmagi]

I don't have an absolute answer for you, I'm no expert. The amounts of Benedryl you were takeing, I'm sure you were very close to ODing on them. They may have messed with your brain chemistry some what. Or you may just be going thru some normal hormone changes at your age. Start takeing vitamins, getting exercise and eating right. Stop the pot, it can't be helping. If it continues, you may need to talk to your parents and your doctor. I know depression and mood swings are very normal for 15 yr olds. Just keep an eye on it that it doesn't get really severe. And never feel embarrassed or ashamed to talk to your parents. Until you have kids of your own, you'll never understand how much their love for you out weighs everything else. A parents love is beyond the scope of comprehension until you are a parent yourself.