Please read this!

[greatescape13]

This is probably well known but it was new to me.  My counselor gave me a copy and I read it every morning bc it is so true.

                                                                    I'm Your Disease

I hate meetings.  I hate a Higher Power.  I hate anyone who has a program.  To all that come in contact with me, I wish you suffering and I wish you death.

Allow me to introduce myself, I am the disease of addiction. CUNNING, BAFFLIND and POWERFUL, thats me.

I have KILLED MILLIONS and I am pleased.

I love to catch you with the element of suprise,  I love pretending I am your friend and lover.  I have given you comfort, have I not?  Wasn't I there for you when you were lonely?  When you wanted to die didnt you call me?  I was there.

I love to make you hurt.  I love to make you cry.  Better yet I love to make you so numb you can neither hurt or cry.  When you cant feel anything at all, this is true glory.

I will give you instand gratification and all I ask of you is long term suffering.  I've been there for you always.  When things were right in your life, you invited me.  You said you didn't deserve these good things, and I was the ONLY ONE who would agree with you.  Together we were able to DESTROY ALL GOOD THINGS in your life.  

People dont take me seriously.  They take strokes seriously, heart attacks seriously, even diabetes they take seriously.  Fools that they are, they dont know that without my help many of these things would not be made possible.

I am a hated disease, and yet I do not come uninvited.  YOU CHOOSE TO HAVE ME.  So many have chosen me over REALITY and PEACE.

More than you hate me, I hate all of you that have a twelve step program.  Your program, your meetings, your higher power, ALL WEAKEN ME and I can't function in the manner I am accustomed to.

Now I must lie here quietly.  You don't see me, BUT I AM GROWING, BIGGER THAN EVER.  When you only exist, I may live.  When you live, I may only exist.  BUT I AM HERE...and until we meet again, if we meet again, I WISH YOU SUFFERING AND DEATH.

[IBKleen]

shibumon...you have been posting excessively in the HIV forum. Please do not start here. this is a substance Abuse forum and we do not deal with your issue. Thank you.

[shibumon]

mam pls read my thread and pls comment on my risk and my symptoms with severe sore throat at 13 week ..

[toothfairie]

very powerful!  i've read one similar but not this one! thanks for the post!  

[nursegirl6572]

WOW, verrrrry powerful.

This part blew me away....so true!!!!

People dont take me seriously.  They take strokes seriously, heart attacks seriously, even diabetes they take seriously.  Fools that they are, they dont know that without my help many of these things would not be made possible.


SO true...people don't realize that beyond their emotional health, their physical health is affected.

This is something that's worthy of fridge posting.  

[greatescape13]

"I will give you instant gratification and all I will ask of you is your long term suffering"  is the line that spoke to me, broke my heart and opened my eyes.  It is all so true.

[ActingBrandNew]

Wow...nice!

[Dane74]

Holy shizzle, now that was a POWERFUL post and hit home for me!!!!  It left tears in my eyes, ohhh how awful addiction is, its so dam scary:-(