Core issue for using

[worried878]

Does anyone here know why they used in the first place?  can u go back and pinpoint the reason or was it just a vague void that needed to be filled...or a chronic pain thing that slipped up on u?...I identified my trigger after quitting...one major one...but i do see now that i feel lows that i do not like but it is de ja vu...i felt this way before and used pills to stay happy and on top of things...chronic pain...yes...but i will take responsibiltiy for abusing for the high and the happines it brought,,,getting alot done....chronic pain breeds depression tho so it is hard to know for sure which came first.....i wonder about my mental status before pills...where was i at exactly?

[worried878]

yey...looking back is only good so we can remeber not to do it again...confused...where did u get that pic with the mouth taped shut?

[joann1975]

oh for the record I did start using for legit pain issues...multiple ones at that. but then it turned into abuse.

[joann1975]

confused...thank you...you are going to give me the "bighead" with all these compliments today...then I am going to say to my husband but confused456 says ....
LMAO! ok now i am getting sleepy starting to not make sense!

[tommm70]

For me it was an epiphany, I used to look down on the guys around me that I knew were addicts. That was until I fell into addiction myself. Being injured and in pain, I just kept feeling I needed pills. Then eventually I think I made up the pain in my mind just to get more.
I wish drug addiction was more understood as a disease, as many still look at it as a failure, or worse.

So basically, I just started to take more than I was prescribed to to keep up the high. Even when I got better, I just kept it up.

Man, what an ordeal, but in the end I think I learned so much about myself and addiction.

[worried878]

yey...sometimes i feel like i learned some things about myself post addiction and thru the addiction process that i would have never learned....not worth the hassle to learn all this but still something positive to take with me

[tommm70]

Ya, and thanks for your comment on my other post. I am not gonna die with my injury, I am gonna suck it up for now and see how it goes.
ugh, I hate these temptations, I hate it. This sucks so bad