Core issue for using

[worried878]

Does anyone here know why they used in the first place?  can u go back and pinpoint the reason or was it just a vague void that needed to be filled...or a chronic pain thing that slipped up on u?...I identified my trigger after quitting...one major one...but i do see now that i feel lows that i do not like but it is de ja vu...i felt this way before and used pills to stay happy and on top of things...chronic pain...yes...but i will take responsibiltiy for abusing for the high and the happines it brought,,,getting alot done....chronic pain breeds depression tho so it is hard to know for sure which came first.....i wonder about my mental status before pills...where was i at exactly?

[Reign30]

I got my first vicodin (5mg) because I had my wisdom tooth pulled.  I noticed that it really ease the back problem I was having.  Innocently, i asked for more to deal with the day to day back pain.  Then I noticed if i took two..the pain went away and i got a feeling of euphoria.  Work wasn't so mundane..my co-workers weren't so stupid. After my first Rx ran out, I thought nothing of it.  Went about my day.  Noticed that all my aches and pain were intensified and i didn't have the energy to do anything.  Went back to doc..got a bigger Rx with refills.  Two a day wasn't having the same feeling..and so goes the story..got cut off by my regular doc..lied to a new doc..and finally took an MRI and found out that i did have a bulging disc problem..found a specialist and then justified that i can take as many as i want..to the point that if i didn't have it within couple of hours..i will start w/d's. Couldn't sleep thru a night because i wil start having w/d's

[mimi1313]

Several dental surgeries. I always had dental trouble and had a bout a dozen surgeries before I was 8. Then later in life I needed more but since I was older they gave me pain medication. I din;t realize how much I started taking. It just hit me one day that I took 8 of the 7.5 vic's. And I was like wow, that is a lot. I did have bone and infected tissue removed but I liked how it made me feel. Plus I was always shy. But that was my wake up call. I consider myself lucky since it was months not years.

[Need2beClean]

I started the narcs about 2 years ago for a severe back pain that we eventually figured out to be a pinched nerve.  I was taking 1-2 every few hours (5/500 Vics) for about 3 weeks in a row.  Eventually the nerve moved and I felt better but then I went to only 1-2/day for every little ache and pain.  I honestly don't know the point when it went from killing pain to addiction, but Thursday the 15th of this month is the first day in two years that I've not taken any.

I used them to just cope.  Even just going to the store for milk was an excuse to take a pill or five because it was such an "effort" because of all of my "pain".  About 2-3 months ago is when I realized that I wasn't just taking them for the pain, but taking them to cope.  I would take them anytime I left the house and always made sure to have some with me when I went out.  I would panic if I realized (which was always) that I didn't have enough to last me the month to get to my next doctor's appointment and had to come up with every excuse in the book (and then some) as to why I needed them early.  My favorite one was making an appointment for something else about 5-6 days early and saying, "Can we just refill my meds now so I don't have to come in next week?"  They usually complied.

To answer the question, yes, it was initially about pain, then it was just the "feel good" that I got while taking them.

[GoingToMakeIt]

hopsing TMI but too true. Turn about's fair play, yes?

I started due to medical. Several root canals, carpal tunnel, blown out knee, back spasms and bulging discs. But I did like the feeling too. At least for awhile, then it was just to feel normal. Then just to function. It is a downward spiral on these things.

[hopsing94]

LMAO Toxic that is too funny. Funny you say that thou. I know one of the reasons I liked the pills was because of my wife. I was very active sexually and she wasn't. I wanted it all the time. Well she didn't,so when I was on the pills I didn't care anymore. You don't want to do it fine, I'll take a few more pills and I won't care. LOL no the tables have turned. She wants it all the time and I don't LOL  LIfe is funny this way.

[kimmieb]

wow, toxic, you hit that nail right on the head!!!!

to all, have a fun, safe, clean, long holiday weekend :-)

laura, girlfriend, LOVED this post....great idea to start it....just sent you an e-mail as well....hope to talk more this weekend....love ya!