Day 1 WD Vicodin

[I_AM_READY]

This is day 1, I have been these animals (Vicodin 7.5/500) for about 7 years and originally used for back pain. Once the pain was gone I ccon't like an idiot and became addicted. I have seen a lot of money, dr's visits etc go by trying to get what I needed to feel human. I would have to take in am just to move, and of  course all through out the day to KEEP moving. I hate what they have done to me, how often I look to obtain them and the person I have become. I DON'T spend quality time with my family because I always just not in the mood. This is just not who I am, I hate who I have become and want OUT now. I am feeling a bit emotional right now and not sure why, no appetite and didn't sleep last night. I want my life back. I want to be happy doing things in every day life with those devils anymore. I just want to be ME. I know this will be the toughest thing I have ever done, but I am 42 and am ruining my life completely. I can't enter a program but I can do is maybe post here and pray to god I get better and fight for my life!  I have a horrible taste in my mouth I can't quite explain, stomach is little nasty and hands a bit shaky. Looking for advise, wisdom and a friend here to help me. I can not let anyone know this, it is my beast. I will allow others in later possibly. Is day 2-3-4- any better than 1st 24hrs? I have been drinking a lot of water and peeing a ton, is that a good thing? Need a friend :(

[I_AM_READY]

Thanks buddy need all the help I can get today. Just feel like I fell in a hole today, after walking on some good ground/attitude. I am still optimistic, I am still experiencing some WD (Sleep and a chill every so often) rest are pretty gone with exception of today. Tolerable, just annoyed today. Head down barrel  forward I guess and try and not think about it at all. Dang it.

To others watching, there is hope. I am proof after 7+  years and taking a very large dangerous dose of 10mg/500 X 15 and 20 a day at peak use. When I quit it was 5mg/325 X 10 a day.

It does get better! I was getting better at day 3, a world of difference. I have friends here, and for that I am forever grateful - Back shortly

[gnarly_1]

get up to walmart at lest the one out here carrys this its called ....''YOGI'' kava stress releaving tea it works good to take the edge off without making you drousy  it about 5 bucks a box if your anxzity is real bad the box says to seap 2 bags add a little sweetner it dosent tast bad give it a try today....Gnarly

[I_AM_READY]

After 7 years I'm not sure I know who I am. Others notice a difference last several days so, can't be all bad. Anxiety SUPER bad this morning and hoping get back to feeling like did last week, end of anyway.

[gnarly_1]

HI you will get some down and out days thats normal you just got to push past them im glad your detox went well you seem to be doing pritty good except for today give it a chance and make the best out of the day God gives you hang in there your right about this is going to take a wile to get back to feeling like yourself and im glad to here your going for aftercare it will help you with days like today keep posting goood luck and God bless.....Gnarly

[I_AM_READY]

Had a good weekend actually. Sleep is still hit and miss. I am still confident, just a little down today, and not feelin it if that makes sense. It's a long road, and once this week is over I will consider after care. Just like I said, not feeling it today...down, anxiety etc. I guess after 7 plus years  could expect this. Just wanna be well today. I felt so good at the end of last week it was amazing