Day 1 WD Vicodin

[I_AM_READY]

This is day 1, I have been these animals (Vicodin 7.5/500) for about 7 years and originally used for back pain. Once the pain was gone I ccon't like an idiot and became addicted. I have seen a lot of money, dr's visits etc go by trying to get what I needed to feel human. I would have to take in am just to move, and of  course all through out the day to KEEP moving. I hate what they have done to me, how often I look to obtain them and the person I have become. I DON'T spend quality time with my family because I always just not in the mood. This is just not who I am, I hate who I have become and want OUT now. I am feeling a bit emotional right now and not sure why, no appetite and didn't sleep last night. I want my life back. I want to be happy doing things in every day life with those devils anymore. I just want to be ME. I know this will be the toughest thing I have ever done, but I am 42 and am ruining my life completely. I can't enter a program but I can do is maybe post here and pray to god I get better and fight for my life!  I have a horrible taste in my mouth I can't quite explain, stomach is little nasty and hands a bit shaky. Looking for advise, wisdom and a friend here to help me. I can not let anyone know this, it is my beast. I will allow others in later possibly. Is day 2-3-4- any better than 1st 24hrs? I have been drinking a lot of water and peeing a ton, is that a good thing? Need a friend :(

[littlebit667]

WOO,WOO! I was concerned and hoping it was a computer thing and not the other!  9 days is big!  Three steps foreward and one back.  I promise you will get better.  You were just missing us!  :)  It is possible you have a cold....w/d has got to lower one's immunity as the body is stressed and frustrated.  I hope today gets better!!

[I_AM_READY]

Sorry guys, PC had issues all of my days off. I am here. Not feeling to good today. Feel like a cold or maybe recurring of WD, I don't know. Just feel like did last week, somehow today. NOT HORRIBLE, but feel lousy and anxiety is WAY up today. I am doing well at Day 9 but need some support. I have been off this site for days and I dont wanna lose what I already tried so hard to achieve. Is this normal? Maybe a cold...Ugh just dont wanna fall back on the cruddy feeling :(

[Letitgonow]

Keep it up, you're a brave person for confronting this.

These pills consume our courage, you really showed some.

[gnarly_1]

HEY DUDE where you been still hanging in there......weekends can be disastrous we tend to fall back into our old ways and go out and get high hope this hasent happened to you post when you read this to let us know your ok and doing well and get plunged into aftercare this is a real mind screw your going to need the help music ant going to be enough trust me hit a meeting this weekend you wont regret it good luck and God bless......Gnarly

[fedup38]

Post as much as u need to I am on day 12 and feeling much better my legs hurt o have tried it all and I only sleep a few hours a night even with OTC sleep aids but atleast the being tired has subsided I can get up and do things now u can so it we are all here for u

[littlebit667]

I have been worried...glad all is OK!  You sound so much better and I am very happy about that.  I have been getting out a LOT more this week and it has done me a world of good.  I hope you have great days off.