Day 1 WD Vicodin

[I_AM_READY]

This is day 1, I have been these animals (Vicodin 7.5/500) for about 7 years and originally used for back pain. Once the pain was gone I ccon't like an idiot and became addicted. I have seen a lot of money, dr's visits etc go by trying to get what I needed to feel human. I would have to take in am just to move, and of  course all through out the day to KEEP moving. I hate what they have done to me, how often I look to obtain them and the person I have become. I DON'T spend quality time with my family because I always just not in the mood. This is just not who I am, I hate who I have become and want OUT now. I am feeling a bit emotional right now and not sure why, no appetite and didn't sleep last night. I want my life back. I want to be happy doing things in every day life with those devils anymore. I just want to be ME. I know this will be the toughest thing I have ever done, but I am 42 and am ruining my life completely. I can't enter a program but I can do is maybe post here and pray to god I get better and fight for my life!  I have a horrible taste in my mouth I can't quite explain, stomach is little nasty and hands a bit shaky. Looking for advise, wisdom and a friend here to help me. I can not let anyone know this, it is my beast. I will allow others in later possibly. Is day 2-3-4- any better than 1st 24hrs? I have been drinking a lot of water and peeing a ton, is that a good thing? Need a friend :(

[gnarly_1]

HEY DUDE good to see they got you up and runing again also good your starting to feel better and yes aftercare is critical to long term sobriety this forum is helpful it keeps it fresh in your head but it wont take the place of human interaction both N/A ana A/A are free and everywhere there are other groups celebration recovery ....a Christian based group as well as conslors and therapists so get pluged in somewhere the sooner the better I have said this iften but the addict has to change the very way we think and reson to overcome this disease hang in there take time to pray good luck and God bless.....Gnarly    

[I_AM_READY]

Gnarl, thank you for checking up on me. I appreciate you brother! I am back as stated and hanging in there. Taking your advise as well as others. This web site is a god send. This should be exposed to people in aftercare as it is a part of it seems already. Love it, and all of my fellow addicts.

[I_AM_READY]

I am back! woohoo. Thanks to the fantastic moderators in here...so responsive and caring. Thank you again.

Day 5 - Sleep is still a hit and miss. Can still fall asleep pretty easily now but 3 or 4 hrs later I am up up. Drives me nuts, but beats day 4 etc. I am eating more regularly now, bananas DO WORK, Immodium makes me feel better, and helped with the #2's as well. Several people are noticing a BIG difference in me right now. No one but you folks know so its nice to have that said to me. I am still struggling as this is a new way of life for me. 7 YEARS of this craziness doesnt go away overnight as one said in the 10,000 posts Ive read in past 5 days. My 1st day off since sobering up and I have been keeping my self busy and listening to music and that seems to help even though not 100% I try and trick MY mind the way My brain is tricking me to think I need them. I have the flu, II can do this...like a liar eventually even they believe the lies -- something like that - it works for me so I will take it. I remain hopeful and hope day 6 is better than today.

I want you all to pray for my friend "selfinduced" She's on day 2 struggles and is my addiction twin on here. I will be back shortly gotta get moving for awhile, plus its banana time yaaa (Yak)

[gnarly_1]

if not google medhelps website and get ahold of a moderator they work on several rooms tell them what happened and they should be able to get you a new password.......Gnarly

[gnarly_1]

well did you get your home computer going yet???

[I_AM_READY]

Gnarly - I just did, and told them exactly that. Thanks again I appreciate everyone here and ALL the help. Forever greatful