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Day 12.. Learning how to live Clean!
Hey all,
I wanted to start a new post with positives!
So Day 12 here and WOW!!! What a difference!
For those of you that have followed my journey, we move in 2 Days!! While my anxiety is high, I do beleive a lot of it is due to the move! 2 hours from here back to my old stomping grounds, which we love! Closer to family for support! My girls will be going to new Schools which, again is a good thing but I am a Mother, of course it stings! Not to mention my baby girl will be a Freshman in High School! While not packing, I have enjoyed riding my bike with my girls to our neighborhood pool. Soaking up the Vitamin C feels great! Life is so much clearer and honestly it's rather sad looking back now that I was numb to my own children, never taking the time to hear about their days or simply chat! I see now why everyone says my 14 yr old is hilarious! Man she makes me smile and really, she has become my best friend in this past week! I went to another meeting this morning and while I chose not to speak, it was very Therapitic!! I have an apt scheduled with a psychiatrist next wed and looking forward to that!
With all that said, I want to say this: someone on here once told me
" that there will never be a good time to detox "... Something in your life will always be going on and make you feel like you can't do it " right now "... Well, here I am going through this massive move with a moody husband that doesn't get what I have and still am going through! My girls starting new schools 3 weeks prior to what they would have if we wouldn't have moved! I did it and I am still doing it! While I know I still have a long way to go, I will never let my guard down!! I have good days and bad days but, I am learning to live again..
PILL FREE!!
I send my utmost Love to every single person that ever responded to any of my post! That Live goes out to the ones that have me tough love when I needed it the most, even if it hurt!! For that I Thank You!.... You know who you are!!
While I will be busy the next few days I will check back in daily!
Right now, I am going to go back and soak in the Vitamin C with the 2 most important people in my life.... My beautiful girls!!
I sincerely give all of my love to every single one of you who got me through the worst Days of my life!
Love,
Ashley..DEDICATEDTOSTOP
I wanted to start a new post with positives!
So Day 12 here and WOW!!! What a difference!
For those of you that have followed my journey, we move in 2 Days!! While my anxiety is high, I do beleive a lot of it is due to the move! 2 hours from here back to my old stomping grounds, which we love! Closer to family for support! My girls will be going to new Schools which, again is a good thing but I am a Mother, of course it stings! Not to mention my baby girl will be a Freshman in High School! While not packing, I have enjoyed riding my bike with my girls to our neighborhood pool. Soaking up the Vitamin C feels great! Life is so much clearer and honestly it's rather sad looking back now that I was numb to my own children, never taking the time to hear about their days or simply chat! I see now why everyone says my 14 yr old is hilarious! Man she makes me smile and really, she has become my best friend in this past week! I went to another meeting this morning and while I chose not to speak, it was very Therapitic!! I have an apt scheduled with a psychiatrist next wed and looking forward to that!
With all that said, I want to say this: someone on here once told me
" that there will never be a good time to detox "... Something in your life will always be going on and make you feel like you can't do it " right now "... Well, here I am going through this massive move with a moody husband that doesn't get what I have and still am going through! My girls starting new schools 3 weeks prior to what they would have if we wouldn't have moved! I did it and I am still doing it! While I know I still have a long way to go, I will never let my guard down!! I have good days and bad days but, I am learning to live again..
PILL FREE!!
I send my utmost Love to every single person that ever responded to any of my post! That Live goes out to the ones that have me tough love when I needed it the most, even if it hurt!! For that I Thank You!.... You know who you are!!
While I will be busy the next few days I will check back in daily!
Right now, I am going to go back and soak in the Vitamin C with the 2 most important people in my life.... My beautiful girls!!
I sincerely give all of my love to every single one of you who got me through the worst Days of my life!
Love,
Ashley..DEDICATEDTOSTOP
Girl that is tough…. I am terribly sorry you are having increased pain. I like you, also moved and it is physically and mentally draining. I also have lumbar spine radicular pain and N/T:( Nerve pain is frustrating, unpredictable, and sometimes downright unbearable. Mine is on my right leg:)
Here is the thing….my pain is not your pain. I can't tell you how much suffering is acceptable as it is so subjective.
Have you tried every single non pharmacological approach you can think of? The only reason I ask this is you have come so far in this battle and I would hate to see you resort back to the cycle! Yes, it would be nice if we could just take 2 weeks of Oxy and be just fine however be honest with yourself. Would 2 weeks turn into 4? Into months? I cannot answer for you but for me it would. I know that about myself from all my past relapses and failures.
I hope your pain resides a little. Pain management is appropriate for some and sometimes a necessity for quality of life. I only have my own experience to base my opinion on as you have yours.
If you want to brainstorm on some non pharm options I am here for you girl! I am here for you regardless but give some serious thought on what your actions. I have followed your posts and wish nothing but the best for you!
Here is the thing….my pain is not your pain. I can't tell you how much suffering is acceptable as it is so subjective.
Have you tried every single non pharmacological approach you can think of? The only reason I ask this is you have come so far in this battle and I would hate to see you resort back to the cycle! Yes, it would be nice if we could just take 2 weeks of Oxy and be just fine however be honest with yourself. Would 2 weeks turn into 4? Into months? I cannot answer for you but for me it would. I know that about myself from all my past relapses and failures.
I hope your pain resides a little. Pain management is appropriate for some and sometimes a necessity for quality of life. I only have my own experience to base my opinion on as you have yours.
If you want to brainstorm on some non pharm options I am here for you girl! I am here for you regardless but give some serious thought on what your actions. I have followed your posts and wish nothing but the best for you!
Hi All,
Just wanted to stop by and check in. Day 19 here. Right now, it's a bit challenging to take the time to sit down an post.
I have to admit guys that I am really struggling. Not with the wd but my back is hurting terribly:(.... This is Day 3 of the intense pain in my Left leg radiating to my foot along w the numbness. This is the same pain I have had since my surgery! I have not lifted anything but I have been on my feet constantly and I have really overdone myself. The Ibprofen 800mg is not even touching it.
I called my pain Dr to inform him, let me add that he knows I have been off the pills, and he thinks that with my back in the shape it's in that I may have jumped the gun too early on coming off the pain meds due to the physical and mental stress of moving. He is suggesting that I go back on the Oxycodone for 2 weeks, until things get settled here and I voiced my concern about it setting me back. Dr stated " have my Husband dispense them as needed, and I should have no problem coming off them for that short period of time "... Advice, input please??? I have not taken anything right now and I am terrified it will set me back:(...,, I have came to far. On the other hand, the pain in my lower back, hip and leg has become almost unbearable. It's my L4 L5 S1 with severe nerve compression.
I am really suffering and I have been taking breaks from unpacking.
I don't know what to do:(
PLEASE HELP!!!
Just wanted to stop by and check in. Day 19 here. Right now, it's a bit challenging to take the time to sit down an post.
I have to admit guys that I am really struggling. Not with the wd but my back is hurting terribly:(.... This is Day 3 of the intense pain in my Left leg radiating to my foot along w the numbness. This is the same pain I have had since my surgery! I have not lifted anything but I have been on my feet constantly and I have really overdone myself. The Ibprofen 800mg is not even touching it.
I called my pain Dr to inform him, let me add that he knows I have been off the pills, and he thinks that with my back in the shape it's in that I may have jumped the gun too early on coming off the pain meds due to the physical and mental stress of moving. He is suggesting that I go back on the Oxycodone for 2 weeks, until things get settled here and I voiced my concern about it setting me back. Dr stated " have my Husband dispense them as needed, and I should have no problem coming off them for that short period of time "... Advice, input please??? I have not taken anything right now and I am terrified it will set me back:(...,, I have came to far. On the other hand, the pain in my lower back, hip and leg has become almost unbearable. It's my L4 L5 S1 with severe nerve compression.
I am really suffering and I have been taking breaks from unpacking.
I don't know what to do:(
PLEASE HELP!!!
Gnarly and Ike,
Just sit down to check in. It's been a very long day. I spent the afternoon getting my girls registered for their new Schools, had my annual appointment with my PCP ( he isn't the one that RX's my pain meds ).. Just wanted to add that so you all know. When I told him I came off the pain pills he praised me and told me that was great news and he said that I have came a long way and he was very impressed. He actually praised me a few times during our conversation. That made me feel really good. He gave me a couple names of a few places he recommended for Accupuncture and I am going to call and arrange an apt Tommorow. I also have my apt with a Psychologist tommorw. I will keep you all posted.
After my Dr apt I had to take my oldest to softball practice, drop her off then pick her back up 2 hours later.
Needless to say, it's been a busy day. Time really flys when you have so much to do.
Thank you both for your support and encouragement!
Xoxo
Just sit down to check in. It's been a very long day. I spent the afternoon getting my girls registered for their new Schools, had my annual appointment with my PCP ( he isn't the one that RX's my pain meds ).. Just wanted to add that so you all know. When I told him I came off the pain pills he praised me and told me that was great news and he said that I have came a long way and he was very impressed. He actually praised me a few times during our conversation. That made me feel really good. He gave me a couple names of a few places he recommended for Accupuncture and I am going to call and arrange an apt Tommorow. I also have my apt with a Psychologist tommorw. I will keep you all posted.
After my Dr apt I had to take my oldest to softball practice, drop her off then pick her back up 2 hours later.
Needless to say, it's been a busy day. Time really flys when you have so much to do.
Thank you both for your support and encouragement!
Xoxo
Hey and WOW! You are doing great. gnarly is so right. We can do well while we focus on wd's and detox. I know you know so I'm looking straight at you. To stay better, we need aftercare of some kind. Being in a new home it may be tough and that's understandable. Aftercare does come in many different forms, stay close to your plan and great things will happen. Bless You so much.....ike
Hey Girl just wanted to say high and encourage you your doing great.....I know you just moved in to a new town but have you check out any meetings yet???? you can do it on the internet just google N/a meetings in your area you need to take care of you as well as your family ...it will give you a break form all that needs to be done moving and that alone will help keep us posted im off to work I will check back later..................Gnarly..................................................
Tikki... That was such a spot on description of this AMAZING group! I concur to everything you said!
Bones.... My friend, I have been thinking about you as well!! Life is hectic as I sure you can imagine. I have been without internet service until now and all I could think about was posting here, updating these Amazing people and how you were doing!.... How are YOU??
I have been so busy that I haven't even had time to feel bad. I am actually on crunch time now. I have to run and drop my oldest off at Softball practice. I will check in when I get home. Day 17 and going strong here. My anxiety seems better but it comes and goes.. Got to run. Will check back in soon!
THANKS SO MUCH to EVERYONE!!
Xoxo
Bones.... My friend, I have been thinking about you as well!! Life is hectic as I sure you can imagine. I have been without internet service until now and all I could think about was posting here, updating these Amazing people and how you were doing!.... How are YOU??
I have been so busy that I haven't even had time to feel bad. I am actually on crunch time now. I have to run and drop my oldest off at Softball practice. I will check in when I get home. Day 17 and going strong here. My anxiety seems better but it comes and goes.. Got to run. Will check back in soon!
THANKS SO MUCH to EVERYONE!!
Xoxo
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