Day 12.. Learning how to live Clean!

[dedicatedtostop]

Hey all,

I wanted to start a new post with positives!
So Day 12 here and WOW!!! What a difference!
For those of you that have followed my journey, we move in 2 Days!! While my anxiety is high, I do beleive a lot of it is due to the move! 2 hours from here back to my old stomping grounds, which we love! Closer to family for support! My girls will be going to new Schools which, again is a good thing but I am a Mother, of course it stings! Not to mention my baby girl will be a Freshman in High School! While not packing, I have enjoyed riding my bike with my girls to our neighborhood pool. Soaking up the Vitamin C feels great! Life is so much clearer and honestly it's rather sad looking back now that I was numb to my own children, never taking the time to hear about their days or simply chat! I see now why everyone says my 14 yr old is hilarious! Man she makes me smile and really, she has become my best friend in this past week! I went to another meeting this morning and while I chose not to speak, it was very Therapitic!! I have an apt scheduled with a psychiatrist next wed and looking forward to that!

With all that said, I want to say this: someone on here once told me
" that there will never be a good time to detox "... Something in your life will always be going on and make you feel like you can't do it " right now "... Well, here I am going through this massive move with a moody husband that doesn't get what I have and still am going through! My girls starting new schools 3 weeks prior to what they would have if we wouldn't have moved! I did it and I am still doing it! While I know I still have a long way to go, I will never let my guard down!! I have good days and bad days but, I am learning to live again..
PILL FREE!!
I send my utmost Love to every single person that ever responded to any of my post! That Live goes out to the ones that have me tough love when I needed it the most, even if it hurt!! For that I Thank You!.... You know who you are!!
While I will be busy the next few days I will check back in daily!
Right now, I am going to go back and soak in the Vitamin C with the 2 most important people in my life.... My beautiful girls!!
I sincerely give all of my love to every single one of you who got me through the worst Days of my life!

Love,
Ashley..DEDICATEDTOSTOP

[Danny111]

You rock dedicated.  

[BearsFan1966]

Good job! Cant wait to hear how it went!

[dedicatedtostop]

Thanks for the support from everyone! I did go to see the Dr today and let me say that I am still clean!!!!! It's quite late here and I am ready for bed. I just wanted to pop in and let everyone know that I have still not taken any pain meds!!! I will come back here and post more of an update in the morning as to how things went at my appointment. I just wanted to take a minute before heading to bed to stop in and report that I have not used!!
Thanks again to everyone!
Xoxo

[Tina6444]

First and foremost I am so sorry you are in such pain. As others have stated pain is subjective and not one of knows exactly how much you are suffering.
I am sure you have tired just about everything at this point in time and can feel your frustration.

Frankly it is going to come down to the question…Are you going to be able to take these medications as prescribed? You would probably not have terrible wd after 2 weeks taking as prescribed but will it truly end at just 2 weeks? Are you prepared to get back on this cycle?

Pain management is appropriate for individuals that need medication to have improved quality of life. And that do not abuse it. I am not a candidate for pain management as I cannot control this addiction. But I am not you…

Please, as Frogger recommends, try every non pharmacological approach you can!   If you like to research (as it seems you do and are knowledgable) google Adriaan Louw and "The low back is having brain surgery". He has some very interesting theories on chronic pain.

By the time you read this you will be most likely back from your Dr. appt and already have come to a decision. No judgement from me regardless of the outcome as this ultimately is a decision between your MD and yourself. I wish you the best! Keep us posted!

[Frogger76]

Hi there!! Please discuss with your doc other ways to manage your chronic pain. I'm not downplaying your pain in any way, but I tend to think that sometimes we feel the only way to manage our pain is through opiates, when in fact, they only reduce it a little.  Sometimes opiates can even make the pain worse. Have your doc discuss with you every non-narcotic treatment option with you, there are many out there. You may have to try a few methods before you find one that works, but that sure beats having to go back to the narcotics. Whatever you choose to do, I wish you the best!!! Take care...

[BearsFan1966]

You know some times we have to do what is best for our bodies. It is not good to be in so much pain all the time....if you take them as prescribed you will not mess up your recovery. Remember we can only take so much pain.