Day 2, in WD, won't go back

[Cassie415]

Hi everyone, I am trying again to stop using oxycontin. For some people who have seen me say this a million times I know you might be sick of me or think I am not actually going to do it, but all I can say is i'm trying again. I am really determined to do this. I am going to get sober this time and make it out on the other side and finally experience life clean. I am going to find new ways to find happiness, because I know oxycontin is just filling some kind of void and it is just artificial happiness that leaves me sick and deathly feeling. I have found a volunteer program that works with kids here, which is what I love to do, and so I am joining it. I'm going to find new ways to fill my time and new things to be interested and passionate about. I want to be clean and happy for these holidays and spend them with my family and not be on drugs. I am not going to waste away anymore and barely live my life. I just want to feel real happiness in myself and my life. Today is day 2, I am very sick, but making myself get up and walk to school has helped. Thank you everyone that constantly helps me and doesn't give up, it means so much. So here goes, i'm trying again.

[Cassie415]

Also, worried I know you said to get out and do something, but even when I was out doing stuff I just kept like spacing out thinking about all these times.

[Cassie415]

hey guys, thanks for the comments. I spent the afternoon at the bookstore and I bought a book, which i'm excited to read. For some reason I can't stop thinking about OC. Like all my past memories/experiences with it, they are just like swarming my head. I think it's because my roommate is going tonight to get it with the people we usually go and knowing she will be back here with it makes it hard so it's got me thinking of all these old times I used to do it. Times I didn't even know existed. Most of my memories from the past 2 yrs are something to do with drugs and alcohol and now it's all I am thinking about since I am not doing it anymore. DOes this ever happen to anyone else?

[bmdad]

So, what's the big test tonight? Any big parties going on!!! Just kidding. Hope you're are feeling better. Maybe getting out to a movie or something would be a nice break. If you didn't live so far away I'd invite you to a movie with my wife and kiddos! When I was in the Marine Corps I made the drive from Cali to IL a few times and don't plan on driving that far anytime soon! Especially with 2 young kids in the truck so the movie will have to wait! Hope you have a great Saturday evening!
Brian

[desperado57]

Hello everyone... I accidentally came across some information that may be helpful with opiate withdrawal.  My son had sinus surgery yesterday and has been suffering with nausea.  The weekend on-call doctor prescribed Zolfran for the nausea, and while I was researching the drug, I came across this info in Wikipedia:


Opioid addiction
Researchers at the Stanford University School of Medicine have demonstrated that ondansetron might be useful and effective for treating withdrawal symptoms of opioid addictions.[8] Unlike the existing treatments methadone and buprenorphine, it is not itself an opioid.[8] And it doesn't require continued supervision like treatment with clonidine.[8]

The original experiment used mice who were injected with increasing doses of morphine, assayed with naloxone and then underwent haplotypic analysis to isolate a gene candidate.[9] HTR3A which codes for the 5-HT3 receptor emerged as the primary candidate, which suggested 5-HT3 antagonist ondansetron as a possible treatment.[9] The researchers were then able to show using an acute morphine administration model the efficacy in withdrawal symptom control in humans.[9]


I don't know if Zofran had been the subject of discussion before, but I thought I'd throw this out there for anyone who may wish to explore it further.

Best to all....

Sue

[worried878]

reading/staying busy is important right now..i read a book called "a million little pieces" when i was going thru detox...great read on an addicts story..i also read the NA book...but sometimes fun stuff/things u like to read can be better so u can "escape" the knowing u r in wd for a while...staying busy/MOVING/helps...write down the reasons u quit when u crave..post often..u can do this girl!  and i will c u posting here months from now helping others who r where u r at right now

[WDsRawful]

I was off the board and thinking about you so I came here to see if you had posted anything and i'm soooooooo glad to see that you are still on track and doing ok.  I was worried.  You're doing soooo good, girlie.  Stay on track and know that me and everyone else here is pulling for ya.  You're like the forum daughter!  lol   Keep me posted.