Day 2

[WantTheGoodLifeNow]

I was here back in October, but relapsed after 4 days. I tried a few times in between but never made it past day 4. I am at it again, and want to make it stick. I know what to expect but I am still nervous and scared. I hate detox, absolutely whole heartedly hate detoxing. I just want to feel normal and feel like I will never feel normal. I wish I never took that first pill, I wanna scream and cry at the same time. I am on vacation this week so I figure this is the only chance I have to get thru the worst of it, but man is a pill calling my name. I don't want to think like this but it just takes over my mind. I hate this! Any encouragement would be appreciated. Thanks in advance.

[VICourageous]

Oh I know you are scared. Heck I still get kind of scared now and then. This is the hardest job I have ever had. But the rewards out way the bad. Having them around makes the work that much harder. I do know this.It is like we want to run and hide in a so called safe place. Well we just have to chin up and face the world with a smile.Are you drinking lots of water? Maybe get some liquid vit/min too. The better we can eat and try to replenish the Vit/Min and Electrolytes the quicker we can come back.One of the greatest things I have learned too is to try to push the exercise. Ha! I know it is easy said then done in the beginning. But from all my months of reading on here, I have been able to follow the ones that do this daily and they seem to be much happier and healthier too! Do you plan on hitting any meetings? Support is so important in this Recovery. I sure wish you the best. When you have a craving come back on and let us know. It will re-directed you and give you support to move out of the moment.
Bless

[WantTheGoodLifeNow]

I am drinking some Gatorade n just ate some apples with caramel. I want to get out n walk but I have no strength. It also kills me to just lay around, I am watching movies to pass time and trying to keep my mind occupied. I am almost half way thru day 2 just trying to move along and get thru the worst. I will be looking into meetings as soon as I feel well enough to go. Ugh I just hate feeling this way, I am anxious and have no energy yet I feel like I can't sit still, I wish my body would make up its damn mind! lol!

[WantTheGoodLifeNow]

I think the thick of it is about to hit, my guts are starting to really hurt sorry if too much info, but boy do they hurt. I am trying to hold on tight and white knuckle thru it but damn is it hard. I hate feeling this way, I am halfway thru day 2 in about 2 hours, I just wanna move on with my life. This addiction has been the worst thing to happen to my life it has completely taken over. I need to get thru this and put that awful chapter of my life behind me. Any encouragement is much appreciated. :-(

[freedom371]

I believe in you. You can do this! I know what you are going through. I am detoxing myself off methadone right now. I was in the middle of my detox and relapsed, Now im trying it again. So dont give up on yourself. We can do this. Im going to NA and that helps me alot. Sometimes i dont want to do anything though. Actually, I NEVER feel like doing anything, but i try to force myself sometimes and have some kind of self control over my detox...but it sure is hell. Insomnia is the worst. Anyway, I wish you the best of luck. Keep reaching out and getting support. That helps me more than anything...talking to people who understand. Im not giving up. Im better than my addiction...and so are you.

[waterLilly7]

Hey Friend,
keep doing what you are doing. Thank God you could take vacation this week!! OK, you need Ensure for when you can't eat. I was drinking it like 3-5 times per day for weeks.

You need to cut all ties to the drugs. Did you?

Chick flicks are great, and HOUSE reruns kept me going. I couldn't have too much excitement in the TV, no news, no gameshows, OMG no, just calm TV, Anne Eyre movies are great for WD, I ordered a set of them and they got me through some nasty days, then after WD I gave them to my mother in law.
Hot baths help tremendously.

You will be out in the light with me soon sweetie. You will be hugging trees and listening to birds and tasting and smelling and smiling soon. hang in there and keep it up!

hugs,
Lily

[freedom371]

I remember, last year, when i detoxed before...after the worst was over, i started feeling really good..surprisingly good. So i kick myself for getting back on it later. I stayed clean for a few months that time. This time, im so fed up with my disease..im determined to do this. Dont be down on yourself for relapsing. It doesnt mean you are not sincere...nor does it mean you failed. Like they say, just pick yourself back up. My relapse has made me want to fight even harder. You are doing right by keeping your mind occupied. When your mind isnt occupied, the time goes by SOOO slow. You are doing great. Just keep pressing on. And the people on this site are really helpful. Ive received real good advice and support..and nobody has judged me.