Day 3 and feeling like a bratty todler!

[amers860]

This is a real Mind F***. I don't know what to do w myself. I always have off on Tuesday. Today I wld have contacted a friend for a blueberry AKA 30mil perc. I would have taken it along w my prescribed Lortabs and floated blissfully through my house cleaning it from top to bottom. I don't feel like doing a damn thing w o a buzz. No cleaning, no cooking, no FBing, no decorating for xmass. Nothing is fun w o the high I'm so desperately craving! And I'm pissed off about it! Pissed off at myself and jealous of other ppl who find joy in ANYTHING while being sober! Oh and I also spent the last 20minutes licking blue residue off anything I could find w it on. Jewelry boxes, pill containers, straws, razor blade, plastic baggys! Yeah, I'm a real classy gal!

[blessdnblind]

Really?? About the sahm's and wives?? Thats crazy!! I would have never thought it!! I seriously felt like a huge loser because here i am, sahm, married to a police officer, great life, dont have to work, in school, but throwing all my days away with pills!! So eye opening to know that!!

[amers860]

I am married to a police officer too. I can do this. I can. I hope.

[amers860]

I was carefull w the razor blade :/ thank u all for letting me *****!

[vicki595]

Well, I guess you were careful with the razor blade!  LOL!!

Of course you can do this!!

Do you have kiddos?

Does your husband know about the pills?

[amers860]

My husband knows about the prescribed. I didn't tell him i hav been purchasing too. Allthough through text Iast night I told him...you do realize dear that the end to this misery I'm feeling is only a text away for me. Do you understand what I mean hun? He replied, yes I assumed that all along. and I know you can resist that tempation. I have 2 kids. 8yr old boy and a 6yr old girl :)

[amers860]

that is funny...lol