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Day 4 and still staying strong
I just want you to know I am still here and still fighting this battle. Imodium works wonders and not feeling too bad other than total lack of energy. I just wish I could wake up feeling good but wake up feeling hungover.
Nobody said this would be easy and it's going to be so worth it.
There's a whole world going on outside my window. Some of it I don't want to see but lots that I do.
Stay strong everyone.
Nobody said this would be easy and it's going to be so worth it.
There's a whole world going on outside my window. Some of it I don't want to see but lots that I do.
Stay strong everyone.
How did I miss you on a benzo taper!? I understand the guilt. Try to give it wings and let it fly away and if that doesn't work for you here is my favorite....F guilt :)
Pat just checking in on you, hopefully you are peacefully resting :)
Pat just checking in on you, hopefully you are peacefully resting :)
Keep it up, Pat. I don't know why but I am an emotional mess tonight too. It has to do with my son and how grown up he is. My little boy will be 18. I love that kid so much and I find myself feeling so guilty about stuff. Stupid benzo taper :(
do u realize that u are like at the peak of the physical w/ds?!?! And you are doing it! I really enjoy reading your posts. Things will be getting way better soon. I swear to you, after a certain point, the days start flowing much more easily and pills will no longer be on your mind 24/7. It is so worth it and i cant wait until you start feeling it!
Pat. U are doing awesome!!!! U are staying strong and making me laugh a whole lot. I hope u have a great weekend....
Hi Eva!!! I'm sorry about ur apt being canceled. But u look cute right. That counts!!! Be strong sweetie!!! Hang in there and try and have a good weekend ok!!!
I took the last pill here at work about an hour ago. Starting cold turkey tomorrow. I took an extra day off on Tuesday, so I will have 4 full days. My familly knows about my detox and are there to help me. I have everything I need for detox.
Going to make it this time. I have tried and tried to taper off Tramadol. Just not working for me. Just going to jump and hold on.
Going to make it this time. I have tried and tried to taper off Tramadol. Just not working for me. Just going to jump and hold on.
Thanks Pat and Minn :)
I accidentally dozed off for a bit. I am better now and going to suck it up, reapply my make-up and make dinner. It does nothing for me to feel sorry for myself or sit around. My plan is to take a break from med help tonight but I am sure that will last an hour at most.
Hope everyone is doing something fun for the long weekend :)
I accidentally dozed off for a bit. I am better now and going to suck it up, reapply my make-up and make dinner. It does nothing for me to feel sorry for myself or sit around. My plan is to take a break from med help tonight but I am sure that will last an hour at most.
Hope everyone is doing something fun for the long weekend :)
Yeah, funny how much the pills color reality, huh? Now I realize I used them as a way to cope. Darn it, reality bites!
You are not a failure. You are jumping right back on. It's too hard to do while working. Actually I think it's impossible. I tried it many times. I was running to the bathroom throwing up in between customers.
I thought I just had the flu back then though.
I will be praying for you too and know you have this.
I thought I just had the flu back then though.
I will be praying for you too and know you have this.
Pat, So happy to hear you are staying strong! :) You are an inspiration to me, I feel like such a failure for giving in but this weekend I am going to stick to my guns. I want to be clean more than ever! As weird as this sounds I am actually excited to go thru withdrawals... never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would say I am excited for withdrawals. Thank you for al of your help, I will continue to pray for you. Keep staying strong girl, you're doing great! :)
Hi Minn.
sorry your job is such a nightmare. I was just thinking about my boss and having to face her soon. Don't know if they will take me back. I was honest with them and I will see if it was worth it.
She is a complete idiot. If she was half as good as she thought she was she would be amazing.
I was warned about her but I just sailed through and only saw the good in people when I was drugged. Now I hate her lol.
Remember the move 9 to 5. Haha,
sorry your job is such a nightmare. I was just thinking about my boss and having to face her soon. Don't know if they will take me back. I was honest with them and I will see if it was worth it.
She is a complete idiot. If she was half as good as she thought she was she would be amazing.
I was warned about her but I just sailed through and only saw the good in people when I was drugged. Now I hate her lol.
Remember the move 9 to 5. Haha,
Hi dear Pat, finally home from work. Who in the bleep works late the Friday before a holiday?! Me, of course. Can't give 'em a reason to go after me. I won't let 'em beat me! Lol, that place is as bad as detox. Thank you for those Boss B Gone Imaginary Guns ;) I used them both today.
Smiles, so sorry your appointment got canceled, but didn't it feel great to look cute?
I love you all so much, thank you for being you!
Hugs,
Minn
Smiles, so sorry your appointment got canceled, but didn't it feel great to look cute?
I love you all so much, thank you for being you!
Hugs,
Minn
Here's a thought. I was thinking why can't I just be like normal people and just take a couple of pills. BECAUSE NORMAL PEOPLE DON'T TAKE PILLS TO FEEL GOOD, YOU IDIOT. I love talking to myself. hahah
Awww that isn't good. Okay I'm not taking anything. I showered but didn't get cute. I shower and 2 minutes late I start sweating again and I smell like wet wood or something. I don't want to go near anyone.
Weekends are tough. Sorry Eva that your appointment was cancelled. I don't even know what to say to cheer you up. I'm too busy feeling sorry for myself.
Weekends are tough. Sorry Eva that your appointment was cancelled. I don't even know what to say to cheer you up. I'm too busy feeling sorry for myself.
I won't if you won't Pat. I just showered and got "cute" for an appt. And found out it was cancelled when I got there. Seriously, it was the one thing I had to look forward to. Now, I am sobbing out of control and at my hardest time of day. I have the total F its right now
Pat, honey you are so right! I'm dreading this weekend cause I don't have anything to make me feel better! Normally I would spend it happy and busy doing all kinds of stuff! I think me and my potty are gonna be best friends for next few days! It's very depressing! I will be around and trying my best to smile and make others smile! It's really all I have! You, we will make it through!
I just want to feel good. Tired of feeling sick. Tired of feeling tired. It's Friday and it ***** to be sick. Normally I would drug myself into oblivion. Take a trip and never leave the barn.
Not today though. just not today.
Not today though. just not today.
Pat, do you have your secret Detoxers gun, that looks like a water pistol? don't leave home without it!
Hi pat. Yeah day 4 was by far my laziest day. I didn't walk that day. Wish I would have but I couldn't push my body. I think it needed the rest. It doesn't seem as bad today. And yes for imodium. I don't think I would have survived without it. So congrats on day 4. Ur doing good. Hands down to u!!! Woo hoo. U got this!!!
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