Aa
Rough day yesterday...
So I want to start off by saying I am still clean. Thankfully!
I had a rough time yesterday though.
And I lied to you all...yet again.
I had 2 backup plans laying there just waiting for me to be weak enough.
Yesterday I went to the doctor and got a script. I went to the pharmacy and tried to fill it.
Well....it was taking a while and I knew it. I get a call from pharmacist saying dps has red flagged me. They have to call my doctor and tell them and see if they still want to fill it. I panicked and left. I called other doctor who used to write scripts and she said she can't do it anymore.
So in one fail swoop, both those sources are GONE!
Which I am at this point incredibly thankful for!
I knew yesterday too. I was way more nervous than I should've been.
My body telling me to do it my head telling me not to.
Just stupid....so so stupid!
Agh!!!
So now I'm here thankful I couldn't get them and use. But also I am so incredibly worried. So worried that ill be arrested or something.
God I hope they look the other way and don't do that.
I don't know what all this dps red flagged stuff means. (If anyone had experience or insight that'd be great). I'm in Texas btw.
But I do not that I am NOT using again!
I know I told you all before that my sources are gone.
Well....now they truly are.
In a way it's a relief.
So I'm ready for all your words....good or bad.
I had a rough time yesterday though.
And I lied to you all...yet again.
I had 2 backup plans laying there just waiting for me to be weak enough.
Yesterday I went to the doctor and got a script. I went to the pharmacy and tried to fill it.
Well....it was taking a while and I knew it. I get a call from pharmacist saying dps has red flagged me. They have to call my doctor and tell them and see if they still want to fill it. I panicked and left. I called other doctor who used to write scripts and she said she can't do it anymore.
So in one fail swoop, both those sources are GONE!
Which I am at this point incredibly thankful for!
I knew yesterday too. I was way more nervous than I should've been.
My body telling me to do it my head telling me not to.
Just stupid....so so stupid!
Agh!!!
So now I'm here thankful I couldn't get them and use. But also I am so incredibly worried. So worried that ill be arrested or something.
God I hope they look the other way and don't do that.
I don't know what all this dps red flagged stuff means. (If anyone had experience or insight that'd be great). I'm in Texas btw.
But I do not that I am NOT using again!
I know I told you all before that my sources are gone.
Well....now they truly are.
In a way it's a relief.
So I'm ready for all your words....good or bad.
THIS is why we say CUT YOUR SOURCES!! ALL of them!! The addict in us Lies, yells, screams and begs!! In weak moments it is all to easy to give in. I am thankful you are still here.. Clean!
Well now you can either find them on the streets or stay clean! Knowing those doors are closed will help you some but where there is a will then there is a way. I can't imagine how scared i would be if that happened to me! Many of us have done things we shouldn't have in order to get our pills! I assume you were flagged for multiple prescriptions from multiple doctors? I am in Texas too and Texas is really starting to come down on doctor shopping! My friend had the same thing happen to her when she went to get her script. They refused to fill the script at the pharmacy. A couple of days later she received a copy of a letter that had been sent to every doctor that had prescribed her Norcos for the past year that basically said she was being investigated for doctor shopping and it listed every doctor on it. About a week later she had a detective looking for her and she assumes it was regarding the doctor shopping as she has never been in trouble before. She admitted herself to a rehab that day per an attorneys recommendation. The attorney told her to get help before they had a chance arrest her. I am not sure what the outcome will be as she is still in rehab. I dont want to scare you but did want to be honest. I hope this was the wake up call or rock bottom that you needed! Try not to stress out about it as there is nothing you can do now but remain clean!
Hey chicky, this is something that would so happen to me. Glad you're still here. Hugs
Holy ****! Try not to stress about it!!!!
This happened to her recently?!?!
Omg!
I have a baby who depends on me! I cannot be investigated or arrested! I cannot go to rehab. I will lose my job, my future career, my family! That cannot happen!
Now I'm even more worried!
This happened to her recently?!?!
Omg!
I have a baby who depends on me! I cannot be investigated or arrested! I cannot go to rehab. I will lose my job, my future career, my family! That cannot happen!
Now I'm even more worried!
I just wanted to commend you on being brave and coming on here to tell the truth. I now that had to be a hard thing to do. I'm glad that you are still clean and now have officially cut all of your sources. Whether you did it, or fate stepped in, doesn't matter. It's done. As far as the possible legal stuff goes, I think the only way to know for sure what you are facing is to have a consultation with a lawyer. They know the law and can let you know all of the possibilities, and what you can do to help matters. Good luck to you.
Hi there,
just want to let you know that you're story is my husband and I's story. We weren't doctor shopping, but one doc was writing three prescriptions of 240 each. Each month we had more difficult getting our scrips filled, until not one pharmacy would fill our prescriptions. Said we'd been flagged. That's when we checked ourselves into rehab on the 18th of this month. Nothing came of it, but we have heard of the DEA knocking on peoples doors wondering what they're doing with their prescriptions. Were you doctor shopping?
just want to let you know that you're story is my husband and I's story. We weren't doctor shopping, but one doc was writing three prescriptions of 240 each. Each month we had more difficult getting our scrips filled, until not one pharmacy would fill our prescriptions. Said we'd been flagged. That's when we checked ourselves into rehab on the 18th of this month. Nothing came of it, but we have heard of the DEA knocking on peoples doors wondering what they're doing with their prescriptions. Were you doctor shopping?
I can only hope that this is just a blip. That if anything possibly comes of it, my being clean will help.
There's nothing I can do but wait and see what happens.
Nobody intends to become addicted to the devil pills, but it happens...a lot!
I honestly would love rehab to be honest. Time away to fix me. That sounds great.
But it would completely disrupt all the things that are good in my life.
This is just awful.
There's nothing I can do but wait and see what happens.
Nobody intends to become addicted to the devil pills, but it happens...a lot!
I honestly would love rehab to be honest. Time away to fix me. That sounds great.
But it would completely disrupt all the things that are good in my life.
This is just awful.
God do I know you're feeling. I may not have a job after this, but I am letting the chips fall where they may. My health is more important to me.
It sneeks up on you. I was taking one here, one there for migraines. Soon realized that I was super mom. My house never looked better. That is until the last two years when I just didn't care anymore.
The pharmacies not filling our prescriptions was a blessing. My husband and I had talked about getting clean for about a year, but we never had the incentive to do so. Our sources were still there. Now, I am so very thankful it all played out like it did.
It sneeks up on you. I was taking one here, one there for migraines. Soon realized that I was super mom. My house never looked better. That is until the last two years when I just didn't care anymore.
The pharmacies not filling our prescriptions was a blessing. My husband and I had talked about getting clean for about a year, but we never had the incentive to do so. Our sources were still there. Now, I am so very thankful it all played out like it did.
Morning & Congrats on day 9!
I know it probably doesn't feel like it right now but I read this as a blessing in disguise - a true wake-up call. It resonates with some of my own experience. To continue would mean engaging on the street. It just gets worse from there (believe me!) I guess people who go through Drs. have a special challenge as they're allowed to maintain the illusion longer that what they're doing isn't truly harmful or dangerous. I know you've struggled with quitting for quite a while & I just wanted to say that I admire your determination. My hat is off to you for posting about the truth today. (So glad you did! ;-)
Listen, yes, they might investigate you but unless you've been 'kiting' scripts or selling the pills on, it's most likely that if anything happens, it will have to do with getting into some sort of outpatient therapy/meetings. (Not a bad idea, eh?) Their primary targets are 'croakers' (or Drs. who write unwarranted prescriptions) & users who deal. You're not going to jail if your record is clean! It's possible that they'll try to throw a scare into you. I think it might be a smart move to get yourself to some sort of counseling or meetings ASAP. That way, even if they do come to you, you've sought help. (Have this help documented.) Though this might be your immediate motivation for seeking help, it might be the best thing you ever did for yourself & your family. (Blessing in disguise?)
Deep breaths! I totally understand your anxiety & I would probably react the same way but I believe you're going to be just fine. Please, try to believe this too! (Also, remember that you're currently on the detox 'roller coaster' emotionally, which might magnify all of this.)
Again, I think it's wonderful that you're here, that you've hung in there & that you've shown such grit with the truth!! ;-)
I know it probably doesn't feel like it right now but I read this as a blessing in disguise - a true wake-up call. It resonates with some of my own experience. To continue would mean engaging on the street. It just gets worse from there (believe me!) I guess people who go through Drs. have a special challenge as they're allowed to maintain the illusion longer that what they're doing isn't truly harmful or dangerous. I know you've struggled with quitting for quite a while & I just wanted to say that I admire your determination. My hat is off to you for posting about the truth today. (So glad you did! ;-)
Listen, yes, they might investigate you but unless you've been 'kiting' scripts or selling the pills on, it's most likely that if anything happens, it will have to do with getting into some sort of outpatient therapy/meetings. (Not a bad idea, eh?) Their primary targets are 'croakers' (or Drs. who write unwarranted prescriptions) & users who deal. You're not going to jail if your record is clean! It's possible that they'll try to throw a scare into you. I think it might be a smart move to get yourself to some sort of counseling or meetings ASAP. That way, even if they do come to you, you've sought help. (Have this help documented.) Though this might be your immediate motivation for seeking help, it might be the best thing you ever did for yourself & your family. (Blessing in disguise?)
Deep breaths! I totally understand your anxiety & I would probably react the same way but I believe you're going to be just fine. Please, try to believe this too! (Also, remember that you're currently on the detox 'roller coaster' emotionally, which might magnify all of this.)
Again, I think it's wonderful that you're here, that you've hung in there & that you've shown such grit with the truth!! ;-)
Great post Evolver! I sure wish I could express myself like you do!
3xs - I sent you a pm to explain friends situation. Keep hanging on tight. You can beat this!
3xs - I sent you a pm to explain friends situation. Keep hanging on tight. You can beat this!
Evolver...
Thank you for your kind words. You've put me at a bit of ease.
I DO see this as a blessing...a kick in the butt.
The worry will remain I'm sure.
What is kiting?
Thank you for your kind words. You've put me at a bit of ease.
I DO see this as a blessing...a kick in the butt.
The worry will remain I'm sure.
What is kiting?
Do you think it's a stupid idea to call the pharmacist and plead my case?
Saying look I'm clean I was weak I'm a mom please don't hurt me. Let me get help? Or to call my dr and say the same?
Saying look I'm clean I was weak I'm a mom please don't hurt me. Let me get help? Or to call my dr and say the same?
Hi 3xs I read your post, and I agree that you need to take some deep breaths and this could be a blessing in disguise. What did you go to the Dr for to get a script? How many different drs have you been going to and are you refilling overlapping scripts? I read up about the pharmacy "red flagging" this AM after seeing your post. I am a post surgery chronic pain patient and have not ever used illegally or dr shopped but it states that a pharmacist has the final digression to fill or not to fill. That chronic pain patients are subjected to their scrutiny as well. I think that them calling to verify the condition doesn't sound out of the norm, however if they ran a report and saw multiple drs that would.
Im proud of you that you came on here and came clean and that you are on day 9, you can do this. Im praying for you XXOO
Im proud of you that you came on here and came clean and that you are on day 9, you can do this. Im praying for you XXOO
In my friends case it was flagged by the new tracking system so pleading to the doctor or pharmacy did nothing but admit guilt. I am not really sure what would be the best approach besides being clean! I wish I could give you more help and hope!
You say that they said that they had to call the dr to see if they wanted to fill a script? Did you ever here back from them or from your drs office?
Hi ;-)
Okay: Actually, kiting is the wrong term (that's check fraud) I should have said just straight up forging/falsifying prescriptions. (I must be watching too many black & white gangster movies & not sleeping enough! Yup, like just last night ;-))
&...No, if you've already been flagged it's in the system. You've got to understand that the pharmacist & Dr. are afraid for their own licenses. If they stepped out of line, they'd be the 'big game' in this hunt! You might come clean to your Dr, though if you truly, intuitively feel that he/she might help & not wishful thinking. I'd come absolutely clean to him/her & say that you're afraid, that you've realized you're an addict -- have been struggling -- but need help. Ask for names of Addiction specialists, therapists or whatever. Even if the Dr. is not well-acquainted with addiction, I don't think that this course of action would make it worse (unless you sense hostility when you contact him/her!) It would show effort, concern & honesty. You could also tell them of your clean time (which happened before the scrip incident!;-) & that you really want this to work for you & your family. Again, you must go by your intuition & your read of the folks involved. If you decide to do it, simply tell your truth the way you tell it here!
Please, let us know what you think & Hold Fast! ;)3x
Okay: Actually, kiting is the wrong term (that's check fraud) I should have said just straight up forging/falsifying prescriptions. (I must be watching too many black & white gangster movies & not sleeping enough! Yup, like just last night ;-))
&...No, if you've already been flagged it's in the system. You've got to understand that the pharmacist & Dr. are afraid for their own licenses. If they stepped out of line, they'd be the 'big game' in this hunt! You might come clean to your Dr, though if you truly, intuitively feel that he/she might help & not wishful thinking. I'd come absolutely clean to him/her & say that you're afraid, that you've realized you're an addict -- have been struggling -- but need help. Ask for names of Addiction specialists, therapists or whatever. Even if the Dr. is not well-acquainted with addiction, I don't think that this course of action would make it worse (unless you sense hostility when you contact him/her!) It would show effort, concern & honesty. You could also tell them of your clean time (which happened before the scrip incident!;-) & that you really want this to work for you & your family. Again, you must go by your intuition & your read of the folks involved. If you decide to do it, simply tell your truth the way you tell it here!
Please, let us know what you think & Hold Fast! ;)3x
Have no heard from pharmacy or doctor as of yet. This all happened yesterday late afternoon.
From what I can gather the DPS doesn't actually red flag you, the doctor or pharmacy can look you up and decide whether or not they feel comfortable prescribing to you.
The pharmacist could have said that just because it whatever.
They did tell me they will call prescribing dr.
After that I have no idea what's happening.
I never meant for it to be like this. Evolver is right...when going through a doctor somehow it feels less illegal/wrong.
Plus there's no immediate consequence.
Well now I may have to deal with serious consequences.
Maybe I won't...who knows.
My my heart has not stopped racing. I'm sick to my stomach thinking about what could happen.
And now I have to get ready to go into work...at a hospital for 8 hours.
My god...what if I'm hauled off from my job.
I'm so scared. Ugh!
From what I can gather the DPS doesn't actually red flag you, the doctor or pharmacy can look you up and decide whether or not they feel comfortable prescribing to you.
The pharmacist could have said that just because it whatever.
They did tell me they will call prescribing dr.
After that I have no idea what's happening.
I never meant for it to be like this. Evolver is right...when going through a doctor somehow it feels less illegal/wrong.
Plus there's no immediate consequence.
Well now I may have to deal with serious consequences.
Maybe I won't...who knows.
My my heart has not stopped racing. I'm sick to my stomach thinking about what could happen.
And now I have to get ready to go into work...at a hospital for 8 hours.
My god...what if I'm hauled off from my job.
I'm so scared. Ugh!
Btw, I don't know about other states but it is now the law in Massachusetts that all opiate prescriptions must be phoned in & checked w/ the prescribing physician for verification. Is this the only reason you believed you were flagged? WAS the script legit?
My friends attorney said that the system can flag you when you are getting multiple scripts. I guess it all depends. When was your last script before this one filled and was it the same doctor?
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