well I believe it's time for the ct express

[mary1070]

well it's a three day weekend. although I have work on the holiday. my plan is no pills sat or sun. if I need 1 to get to work & not kill anyone then thats that then none tues, wed, thurs call off on friday then I have sat, & sunday. thats 8 days with 1 day I may need 1 pill just to get me through work on the holiday. scared that I'm going to wined up dead somewhere . I do have xanxa benadryl just need to get vit.sup. I've read you should only take the xanaxs for the 1st 4 to5 days oh & Imodum. this form. God know my family sees 1 tear & it will be all over for me. I know they just care but If I were them I'd stay out off my way. I really just want to cry all the time without anyone staring at me I know there's not alot of people not on here on the weekend am I better off on the disscusion board ??????????????

[Mommy2328]

Hi Mary -
I am so happy to see you on here!   I was wondering how you were doing with the taper.  You can do it!  I also went to work on day 3 - and I took a xanax, it helped, as did coffee and a diet pill (probally not the best advice though) at the end of my work day i was so proud of myself and got my first surge of energy, a natual high - it was great - I was so happy i flushed my "emergency pill" b/c I did not want ot relase.
I normally don't get on here much during the weekend - but i promise to check in at least once a day this weekend to see how you are.  
on day 3 - I spent the entire day on this forum and it helped - not feeling SO alone - try to get on here as much as possible.  Keep reminding yourself WHY you are doing this and you will do it - you are a MOM - you ARE a STRONG women.  
I never in a million years thought I could run my household without the help of pills - and here I am....day...OMG I forgot for a second, that's how good i feel, DAY 12 - I was able to wake up each day, work, take care of my baby, husband, etc... not super fun at first, but by now I am doing good, getting natural highs again and you will be too if you stay strong!

[Lindsay_T]

Mary,
You are going to be okay! You have a plan. Now work it. And post here! Don't over think this, just over DO it (as in - over prepare with supplies, have your computer fired up, don't expect to have ANY MOTIVATION to do anything productive...). Please get on here and tell us what's going on. There are plenty of peeps here day and night. My sister name is Mary. Oh dear, don't get me started. Anyway, we all need each other  to fight this ugly addiction. You can do it!!

[mary1070]

Tx's I'm coming of vic5/500 I'm down from 50mg to about 20 on a good day 15mg ( few & far between ) some days I F*** up & I'm back to 50mg. Every day is such a strugel with this taper thing but the complete horror I feel when I think NOTHING set me in to full axiety mode. I'm trying to stay in the moment not think of tomorrow, I will need all the help & Pray I can get Going to try to keep myself busy & mind of of it I will be in touch over the weekend. this page will be mylife line

[janet19]

Mary I am new around here. What are you coming off of? I will be around this weekend my husband will not be back until Monday morning. I am an addict taking suboxone right now for Vic's and Soma's controll my life. I was taking about 25 pills of each vics 10's and somas 350's. I was also using halcion and ativan to sleep, Plus another 2 anti-depressants Elavil and Trazadone. Taking the suboxone is like being drug free for me. I also see a therapist and go to NA 4 or 5 days a week. NA does help some, and for sure it lets you  know you are not alone in your addiction. There are people to talk to and you can be as honest as you want with them, because they have been where we are now and are fight the demons just like us. Well Mary I wish you luck and I will be around this weekend so if you need to talk I will be here.