Energy

[BearsFan1966]

So I have been sitting here this morning pondering my whole energy situation...Here is what I have come up with!
We spend so much time taking our DOC to make us "feel better" but I think we were just fooling (I should say I know) ourselves. We would take a pill to do this or that, leaving our bodies to play catch up with our minds! Now that we are clean our poor bodies are trying to recover and this takes time! Even at 70 days clean I still do not have much energy or motivation. I did this to my body for over 10 years! But I can take that just don't want to chase that stupid pill!
When we are chasing the pill or DOC our heart races just thinking of that next one! Is that living life? NO
Think about the money wasted on DOC...I know I have wasted so much money, time, and my kids life's chasing the next high!
I can think clearer now and if I do not get some thing done I know it will be there tomorrow waiting for me and that's ok cause I am clean!
I am not a robot running in circles any more...I am me!
I am human again and loving the little things in life again!
I do not fly off the handle any more and think before I react now!
I see the little things that mean so much now!
Being clean is all that matters to me now and my family is my number 1 priority!
I will wait as long as it take for my body to heal because life with out pills is truly a life worth living!!!
I hope some one gets some thing out of my rambling and pushes on!
Love you all and you all are my hero's!
WE CAN DO THIS!!!!!

[Teri9498]

Hey Bear....great post!!!...I've noticed w/the energy thing that if I just get up & do things..clean house..go out 4 a run...just keep busy some way I have a ton more energy than if I'm just sitting around...I'm 12 days today & am already getting my energy back...I know it don't sound fun, but u just have 2 make urself...anyway, that's what I've noticed works 4 me!...CONGRATS on ur clean days!!...& ur attitude is AWESOME!!....hugs!  :))

[BearsFan1966]

Thanks Teri! Congratulations on your clean days! You are rocking this!! The funny thing is I have to remember before pills I had energy but I was also 11 years younger! lol Time what a dirty word! ha ha

[Dane74]

Great post!! I love what you said about not being a robot anymore, that is so funny and true, when i was on pills i was literally a robot, and i would fly off the handle too!  Now i am too just ME!  We are now living life and not just zooming around like a chicken without a head.  You are doing great, around the 90 day mark is when you should feel more of the energy coming back, yep it takes time but you are doing it each and everyday....

[ariley13]

Thank you for this inspiring post my friend. I am on day 192 and still have bad days as far as energy goes. I also have a lot of pain issues and sometimes find myself getting very down on myself because I can't do the basic daily stuff when I'm having a bad pain day. I have to remind myself that I can take care of it tomorrow, or whenever. If I need a little bit of extra help to do things, then I need to accept that and quit being so stubborn. Hang in there everyone. Let's be strong, stick together, and things will get better for all of us!

[BearsFan1966]

Thanks Dane! Life is really life again! I forgot what it felt like to truly feel life! So happy not to yell and scream all the time! Now I scream because I am happy and living again!

[BearsFan1966]

Ariley I so know what you mean but now instead of taking a DOC I reach for the Aleve and you know what I only need to take it once a day if that! Yes!!! On ward and upward oh and I so need a cleaning fairy! lol