Feeling alone.

[Catt_N]

Has anyone been on methadone for over a decade? I've been on this for 12 years and my father asked me,are you going to live like this forever? It hit me so hard cuz I never thought about it.
During those 11 years I went up and down a lot,(highest dose was 80mgs) but managed to get myself down to 13 mgs by new years eve 2011. Then started a silly rapid detox and decreased 13 mgs down to 11mgs for one week. Then 11mgs down to 8.5mgs the next. I got so sick. Felt like my heart almost gave up on me giving me random chest pains. So I had to slow down. I went only 1mg each week til I got to 5.5mgs, & stayed on that for 10 days as I felt the rapid detox was catching up to me. Today is only day one and I'm sending myself into a panic attack! I do have clonidine and Diazapam and some lopermide just in case. Has any body out there been on methadone for over a decade and made it? Are the withdrawals longer than others who has been on it like 3 or 4 years? Will it be harder on people who've been on it too long? Is it too late?

[Catt_N]

Yes you are right about everything you just asked. Today is only day one without the methadone, only 4 hrs since my last dose. I've calmed down after taking a clonidine. Been reading on so many different stories. Learnt that everybody is different. So here's hoping I won't be punished too harshly. I don't know what normal is anymore. But I crave it, and I want it back. Thanks guys, for being here. The support makes a great difference. Gives me hope.

[Catt_N]

And guys, it's too late, I've no more takeaways and am on day 1 of no methadone. I'm very far away from home but my parents are here if I need them. I have 3 boys and they're staying with their father back at home. And I'm not coming home til I'm sure I have seen this thru. Thanks guys

[atthebeach]

Ok good. You have been on a low dose for 4 years that will help with your
Detox. Keep your mind and body busy. Hot Epsom salt baths will help with aches, pains, anxiety. Take a magnesium/ calcium supplement. Drink protein shakes. Clean eating lean protein, veggies and fruit. Stay away from sugars,
Caffeine. Move around as much as possible. If you can get some sun that will help.
I am happy for you and very proud of you. You are doing a wonderful thing for you and your family. Get yourself some counseling and/ or attend some support groups, counsel with a pastor, attend church. Get as muh support as possible.
We are here to always answer questions and provide encouragement and
Support.
Sending hope, healing and prayers,
Debbie

[Catt_N]

Debbie you've given me so hope that I can't stop crying. That's another thing I can't control. The crying but I'm just gonna let everything flow. Mum and dad is taking care of me thank goodness.
Thank you so much for giving me that glimmer of hope. Hugs.

[Catt_N]

Debbie you've given me so hope that I can't stop crying. That's another thing I can't control. The crying but I'm just gonna let everything flow. Mum and dad is taking care of me thank goodness.
Thank you so much for giving me that glimmer of hope. Hugs.

[Catt_N]

Debbie you've given me so hope that I can't stop crying. That's another thing I can't control. The crying but I'm just gonna let everything flow. Mum and dad is taking care of me thank goodness.
Thank you so much for giving me that glimmer of hope. Hugs.