I met a guy a couple months and each week I find out more things about him. I am attracted to his wit, super sense of humor, grammar, brains and the way he loves me. He has been an opiate (preferably morphine, though also heroin) IV drug user off/on for over 10 years and i recently found out he smokes crack every couple weeks. He shoplifts daily to eat (when he does eat) or out of plain boredom. He is pretty darn un motivated and sleeps way more then the average person. 3 years ago he jumped off a building in hopes to kill himself, but was unsuccessful and he was in a 3 month coma instead.
We have a very hot and cold relationship, and i dont know what i can believe when he talks anymore. Tomorrow (the day before his birthday) he gets back his Hep.C test, he had to repeat his first one for some reason...so he says!. This frightens me because i used his toothbrush once before. I myself am a nurse, so feel like i should know better then to get myself wrapped up in this drama. However, when i dont talk to him i either think he is dead or in an alley bugged out. I feel really stuck, and not sure if i should stay or try really hard to leave and never look back. I see and feel his heart and it saddens me that someone with so much potential has lost all hope in himself. He promised me the other day that he is going to go to an in house rehab center, though i myself am loosing hope in his progress. I am embarrassed to be seen with him, and dont have approval of him by any of my friends.
I am wondering what the likelihood of someone over coming opiates and crack? and what are the symptoms that he is still using. Any help or info. would be really beneficial.
Thanks!