4 Months Today!!!

[Andie015]

I feel great!  When I was heavily using I would tell myself that I need to take control of my addiction and accomplish something meaningful...carry through with what I wanted to achieve...then I would pop some pills and push that to the side.  I have proved to myself that I am capable of overcoming huge obstacles in my life.  Four months is far from overcoming, in fact I know I will never truly overcome my addiction, but from using heavily for 10 years and never having more than four or five clean days, only because I couldn't get a refill, four months is huge.  I hope it just keeps getting better and better while the horrible effects of pills gets farther away.  Time to make some new, clean and wonderful memories!!
Thanks to everyone who is so great and supportive here, it's nice to have an outlet where people truly understand...have a great day everyone!!

[Clarityrocks]

Congratulations! That is so awesome, I am so happy for you!

[VICourageous]

GREAT POST....GOOD JOB!!!!!
Keep on stepping forward and do not look back.......
vickie

[hope4good]

Congrats on 4 months.  Keep it up.

[dominosarah]

Congrats!  Keep moving forward and remember to keep your Guard Up!

[FourJays]

This is fabulous!  You HAVE overcome huge obstacles to get this far - you should be so proud of yourself.  Good luck as you continue to make the new memories and put the pills in the past - quickly becoming the DISTANT past!!!  Congratulations . . . keep it up :))

[nbhope]

Good job Andie :))

[Cira30]

I am tapering now.  So glad to hear that life does go on and you can be happy without pills!!!

[ricart70]

Congrats on the four months!    keep it up    :)     awesome

[luvabugga]

Congrats Andie....that's awesome.  Still lovin' the positive attitude!!

[Andie015]

Thanks everyone!! I really look forward to posting each milestone here....

[hopeless9600]

Congrats to you.. that is just absolutely wonderful.. i cant get off this rollercoaster & i hate it & myself. Hearing these positive posts gives me hope. In part of my mind I know when I stop I will be so much happier.. Then the other side of my mind tells me I won't. I have been in this fog for so long it's just normal.. i honesly do not know how i would feel being clean. but its a feeling I want soooo bad... i am so scared about WD but tell myself i deserve everything i have coming because i did this to myself.  I just want to STOP!!  
Sorry i didn't mean to make this about me... but reading your post gives me hope... I want to feel happy about life again...

[BarbRTR]

Congrats to you Andie. That is a major accomplishment!!! Huge!!! You should feel very proud of yourself!

Hopeless9600, if you haven't already, please make a post for yourself. It's very helpful to have a lot of support, especially at the beginning!

[Andie015]

Hopeless....please don't hate yourself...you are a good person with a bad habit that's all. And I know how it feels to want it but too scared to do it. Its a safe feeling to keep taking pills..it's all you know and quitting is a scary thing because its not a feeling that's familiar and you wonder how you will ever survive without the high and the energy. I'm here to tell you that you DO survive and more than that... You live. You live again and have a normal life. It's probably hard to imagine or remember what that feels like but it's worth the discomfort to remember. Please use all of us here to help...that's what we're here for. I really thought that I was going to be able to say I got a new job on my 4 month mark...but that didn't happen and I'm totally bummed about it. I've messed up so many jobs because of pills and now I'm paying the price. I've had this blind faith that I've turned my life around and stopped all of the deception so by some miracle based on that I will get a job because I "deserve" it. I guess I have to keep pushing on...everything happens for a reason...right?

[toothfairie]

congrats on 4 months!  that's awesome!  you are doing great!  i'll be there soon!  :)

[Teresa1717]

Great job Andie!!! Youve done such a great job!! I had 4 months once and I know how hard it is to get to that!! Hold that clean time sacred and keep doing what your doing!!

Congrats girl! :)

[killerzoey]

Congratulations!!!! You sound like you're doing awesome :) Keep up the great work, you're an inspiration.