Hello mh friends well today is day 35!!! Seem to have a few good days and then some not so good days but all in all im doing better. Have been going back in forth in my head about aftercare and think maybe its time. Ive done some research and im deep in "PAWS" thought I was dealing with it all ok but it seems to be taking its toll on my and my fiances relationship. When he tries to talk to me my brain either shuts down its like I understand what he's saying but just cant form a response, or other times I can feel myself getting angry and tend to over react...I've tried to talk to him about "recovery" he's never done drugs, tell him how hard this is and he tells me how hard its been on him..I know it has I hate he's seen me and had to deal with me like this..lately ive just tried to be quite afraid that ill say the wrong thing or just unsure what to say. There was a question in all this as far as an addiction counslor whats the best way to find one, should you interview or just give one a try?? And are there any out there who have gone through this with a "non addict" any tips, finding it hard to talk or make him understand???