my day 4 is here and day 5 for the girls =)

[ronny3]

last night was the first night i got less sleep and i kept waking up...restless legs are honestly the worst part and all the body aches...but im good even with the amount of roxicet30mgs i was taking as i see it only a few more days to go...i can get through to the other side, but its the other side im worried about.  thats when i relapsed the last time, but at least i know now that theres no such thing as one little reward for my hard work...nope...that doesnt work believe me!! i wouldnt be here AGAIN!!  so if you think oh if i can make it to two weeks or one month ill give myself a treat you are fooling yourself.  this is for life...hopefully when i get to two weeks this time i can make it to one month and go from there, one step at a time...

heres to another longgg day...but for me, im more excited to live a new life and not waste another 10 years of my life...good luck to you all on another day and lets make it to the next!!

_Ron

[ronny3]

oh man i took a colonidine and a baclofen earlier and passed out for about an hour today is by far the worst day...i guess its peaking and im hoping tomorrow doesnt get worse or stays like this..but i have to be optimistic that it could get worse and last longer so i guess now im ready for it after that nap...i woke up like 30 mins ago yet i still cant see striaght...

you girls doing better now?  kelley how do you feel after those cravings, believe me i had the same thing yesterday, we just gotta face them... glad you did :)

[SmartYetStupid]

We rock so good they made two of us!  LMAO!

Ronny?  You feeling better?  Kelley?  Hang in there honey.  This is just a bump in the road.

[kelley43]

hi guys!  
these up and downs are driving me crazy!!!
I'm glad to see you both on here, we gotta stick together,
sandwich like, ya know?
day 5 ronny, day 6 kel, we rock!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS,
KELLEY

[SmartYetStupid]

Like you, the RLS is driving me INSANE!  If I could get rid of ONE withdrawal symptom, that would be it.  

Congrats on day 5 and Merry Christmas!

[ronny3]

lol good to know you made it another day....hope you had a good night yesterday :)    for me it wasnt so pleasant, but what can i do...my fault  afew more days till i can function i guess...

i hope it stays all day also...today i wokt up after 3 hours of sleep and didnt feel any withdrawals but boy was i fooled next thing i know i got kicked in the ***..and now im walking like a 90 year old man again lol....

im good though 5th day now...gotta keep it going i already feel like a new person mentally just the fact that im not taking anything feels great and i feel more alive even with these wd's

[SmartYetStupid]

Present and accounted for!

Merry Christmas and Happy 5th and 6th day!

I feel pretty good, too.  The last two days were just awful.  Here's hoping the good feeling stays all day!

[ronny3]

hey kelley, had a rough day yesterday as you could see, lol.....but i got past it thank god!!  i did some cardio and i felt great for a little while...right now its 5:30 in the morning this is the first night no benzo or melatonin could help..was tossing and turning and couldnt sleep...well another day now to fight, but i think ill be ok i gotta learn to controll those cravings and thoughts...

and kelly i hope you are doing ok also...yesterday i didnt see both of you on the boards glad to hear your good kelley,now i have to hear from your twin sister..  ;)

[kelley43]

i haven't been on since this a.m, took a minute to come on and check on a few of you (no names mentioned!!).  Today was good thru first part of day, I was forced to do stuff.  I wore out late afternoon, and now i'm off to bed. klonopin and colonodine on board...
Ronny, you have alot going on.  you can make it this time.  you HAVE to make it this time!!!! I will talk with you more tomorrow, keep posting...
Kelly, I hope you are o.k.  you were struggling a bit earlier, i think of you and hope you are handling those RLS.
i love all you  guys,
kelley

[ronny3]

i completely agree!! and thats what im scared of...the first time i quit i said let me get past the withdrawals and ill just take them on the weekends lol yeah right and then the last time i did it i made it to two weeks and i said id never touch them again and that day i had a date and said let me give my self a treat for being so good....

im kinda nervous what to do again when those times come...im dealing with things one thing at a time and when those craving come i will have to face them and fight them and now i know there is never a one time no big deal...and btw everything is a craving, driving, going out, hanging out, movies, anything possible, even watching football games or baseball games (and btw baseball games when they are on are every night almost!!) man its gonna be hard...i hope i make it to next year and then the next i just hope this time i have learned my lesson bc i will loose everything that i still have left...

[flmagi]

The withdrawals you're going threw now may seem easy in a few weeks. The hard part is yet to come. I don't mean to scare you, I just want to say " Be Prepared!"   When you really start to feel better physically, the demon will come to you and really try to get you back. Be prepared to face situations that you may be faced with, like stressful situations, or someone showing up with a handful of your DOC.  Do not let your guard down. Do not think for a second that you can take just one, or just today, or "I can do them recreationally on occasion". Just one will lead you right back to where you were before and worse. Start thinking now about how you will handle different scenarios where you could be tempted, along with recognizing what your trigger points are....Your boyfriend?, girlfriend?, husband?,wife?, the kids?, Your Mother? Work? To much to do?. It's so important to realize what has made you crave in the past, and make a plan to deal with these things without the drugs.
The demon is just sitting back waiting for you to be weak or off guard. Do not let him win.
Stay strong, good luck and keep up the fight.

[SmartYetStupid]

Congrats to you both!!!!!  Day Five here, too!

Kelley?  Check your messages on this board!  

[kelley43]

good morning!  I actually feel really good, but's it's early yet, my hubby is just bringing me my coffee.  Did I tell you I was a princess?  LOL
I'm sorry last night was bad for you.  Seems like we all kinda struggled yesterday.  
I see you are still thinking about what's going to happen on the other side.  Please don't.  You won't relapse, because you have the power not to.  Kinda simple, huh?  As long as you never touch ONE, you'll never be here again.  You WILL make it, just don't think about it, that's torture.  I can't imagine my life without hydros ever again, (ugg, that's a bad thought), but i know I can't even think about it.
I'm so glad you are right with us.  I hope today is a better day for u.  The rumor of day 4 being the worst WAS the worst for me.  I'm begging to feel better today.
yes, one step at a time
keep it up baby!